Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I was facing a lot of trouble for admissions in college because I got 85% and wanna become a psychologist… The fee of college is really high and my parents suffered a lot for arranging the money. A month before they paid 30k as the first installment and now I’ve to pay 1.7 lacs (including hostel charges) so , finally my mom and dad arranged the money by selling their ornaments…i was all set to go for college, just shopping was left but 4 days ago my grandma got sick and we had to shift her in hospital… The things are getting worse day by day. I don’t know if I sound selfish but I have to pay the fee before deadline and reach in my college at 18th Oct… The college is in the other city n state… Now I’m praying day and night for my grandma’s speedy recovery but nothing is happening… Tbh my father is a pathetic person … If somehow my grandma passes away, my mom will have to face tortures by him… Anyway… I’m really lost that what should I do… I’ve only 2 days to pay the fee… 😭