I was emotionally abused by my ex, we were together for about 3 years (on and off) during the pandemic we were apart for 2 weeks and I got the courage to break up with him its been more than a year since we last talk and he has a new girlfriend he truly seems happy and I feel so bad because I still miss him so much and I know I shouldn’t but I do and it scares me to think that eventually I’ll end up with him cause he treat me so bad I was scared of him getting angry and hurting me that kind of stuff you don’t understand until you go through and on top of that I think I’m jealous of him being happy after everything he put me through, he’s the one with a great life and a nice person to love and I’m just here missing him and feeling dumb, God I’m so alone…