I was at my girlfriends house yesterday…I was having a lot of anxiety all day (not sure why) but later my gf’s mom showed me a bunch of music that I was unfamiliar with and I got scared…I know she’s not a bad lady at all whatsoever, but I can’t help but feel like I annoyed her…so I ended up having a panic attack in the bathroom…Then later my gf’s brother practiced boxing combos and I was terrified…I know he’d never hurt his sister or me (well maybe, I don’t know him that well) but it really sent me back. I ended up making everyone worried cause I went outside for air…then they saw me crying…I feel so unbelievably pathetic. But when they said it was okay and they understood, it’s only making me realize more and more how much of a messed up household I grew up in. It’s never be okay to cry. Family isn’t always blood but what you make of it, and I’m happy I have my girl to be there for me when I’m in these states. She makes me realize I’m not everything they say I am. She makes me feel like I’m worth something and makes me want to live another day. I’m very grateful to have her by my side<3
You really are lucky to have her by your side!
Just don’t think too much like you are annoying or smthg…you are doing good :)
Hey there, well someone out there is happy only because you exist, crying is never for weak, and hey you don’t have to be afraid of anything, you’re a great person yourself, If you panick take deep breaths and be around your girl, take night road walks often, If there’s something, then try to talk to the moon ( well it releases my stress) And no you aren’t messed up, you’re human, it’s normal. 🤍
Okay thanks, I’ll try to keep that in mind and do as you recommended<3
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sam soliman @lost253
It’s good to feel things- it would be a much worse scenario if you were never scared or upset, or happy or excited. Sounds like your body goes into fight or flight mode quite easily- this does not make you pathetic at all- it sounds like the result of trauma and that therapy would be really beneficial for you. Chin up, your gf obv thinks you’re amazing.
Thanks sm
