I was 13 years old when a friend of my sister (who is 8 years older than me) touched me in my the wrong place for the first time. She used to visit our place a lot and find the time when she had access to me alone. She had my parents and sister fooled that she checks up on my studies and all that. She was the one who taught me how to play with myself and demanded to see me do it. She laid her hands on my private parts a lot and felt me everywhere and I will be honest, she controlled me. It started happening quite a lot and I could never say anything. I was terrified of her. It’s been a while now. She’s married and I still have a fear of doing anything intimate with my girlfriend. I’m scarred. What do I do?
I can’t afford professional therapy. I just wanna be normal and have a good time when my girlfriend comes near me. I haven’t told her or anyone for that matter, about this.
That’s scary
