3am Thoughts

I have final tomorrow and i don't want to study. I don't know what to do 

I want to be happy and healthy

Enjoy every pal don't wait for kal🌸🤌

Hi everyone. I wanted to let few thoughts out of my mind because I have never shared these things ever with anyone. I was too afraid.

When i was in college, we had 3rd year final exams and I was sitting in exam hall giving exams, I was scared and tensed because the question paper was very tough. My invigilator was a man and he continously stared at me throughout. He came to me and said I think you have a mobile phone thats why you seem so scared. I was like 'wtf' . After that he kept on harassing me throughout exams. Time to time he used to come and touch my shoulders and he kept on telling me that he needs to check my whole body later. I felt really weird about these statements. But I couldn't do anything then because of my exams stress and he was the HOD of some subject. He was very powerful. Later when i went to submit my papers, he touched me very inappropriately and said I need to check your whole body later. I still am very traumatised by this sentence of his.

I know I should've complained, should've done something. But I did nothing. Nothing at all. 
I have 2-3 other harrasment incidents as well, being groped, being masturbated at in bus, my uncle kissing me when i was small. I never shared all this to anyone. I should've and I regret it till now. It haunts me.

Harassment

I loved a person more than 10 years... i trust him lot... but both parents doesn't like us due to community...  he started to force me for register marriage and we did register without parents in October... on that day itself my parents came to know and he left me in my home.,... now he sent court notice that I lived with him as husband and wife in his house for one month... i should reply him within one week.,. even we stay alone in separate home he can't leave without parents after one month he will leave me alone... while loving itself i know , he saying everything lie , if I ask he will divert me and start new problem... my parents said it's ur life u decide, we are not responsible after you lost your life by him... he tried to contact me during this 6 months but I not talked.,.. yesterday before his parents and him I said i don't like to live with you... he said hereafter I won't disturb you and believe you will come with me... after this both family is happy... i feel guilty... I loved him truly but he loved oly for that thing... my head says it's better to live him but my heart thinks of him and worries...wat can I do .... pls give suggestions and advise me,.

Depression

I just can't bear with the arguments in my house 
It's getting too much for me 
Everytime every fking time I think they'll consider me and reduce their arguments and make peace it just is for the time being 
Again back to square. 
I really don't deserve this environment
I don't know what to say

Family

Anyone wants to have a conversation?

In my head i have a constant voice saying I don't want to be a girl. I am a boy and I really love myself but I have a fear of becoming trans.

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