I want to tell my ex how much I love him but I am not able to do because of fear plus I don’t know if texting him my feelings would be a good option. 

I cheated because there were communication gaps n I was in a very bad situation I need someone n he wasn’t there. Then I apologised n was in guilt for so many years. Finally when I was ok he came back again n I didn’t liked the way he approached n since then I couldn’t tell him that I still miss us n love him 

3am Thoughts

After many sleepless night, i can feel the return feeling of being heartbroken, left alone, played with my feelings, making me thinking that I don't deserve anyone!!

One Bad Chapter Doesn't End the Story ♥️

Love

Letting go is hard. Especially when u don't know what went wrong, you keep looking back you don't get the answer but then going back to those memories, they start troubling you. Things which never bothered u while they were happening to you now absolutely rip you apart. But it's a good thing na....you realise that it was wrong, and u didn't deserved it and that u won't let urself go thru that again. You'll speak up this time. But u don't know when these things started affecting u soo much something that's long gone and whyy they're troubling u soo much. Maybe I want to know the root of it, cz dont wanna go thru it again. Or maybe too much self evaluating or maybe I'm being plain stupid and delusional. Idk. 

Depression

I don't feel like doing anything , i m at a stage that everything i do is leading to worst ,i feel so alone . I think everything is just ruined for me . Im trying so hard everyday to do little things 

Hustle

im really thinking of going to law school, but im lacking in reason to go for it, should i go for it? 

I feel so Broken

I don't know what to do anymore
Tonight I got really stressed and kinda felt paralyzed, so I wasn't really getting up to help get my siblings ready for bed...well my dad yelled at me to help and so I forced myself to get up and started getting them ready for bed. 

And then my dad tried talking to me so I said "leave me alone" cuz I was still stressed and not ready to talk, and then he started cursing me out and calling me "Fucking Asshole" "Selfish Bitch" and told me to cut my wrists or kill myself, he didn't care....So I self harmed again.

I really don't know what to do. I'm stressed so often and I know I'm lazy, selfish, etc. But most the time its just cuz I'm stressed. And then my mom agreed with him, and told me to come out of my closet I can't hide from my problems and then got really mad at me when I went outside to calm down. 

So now I'm back in my closet, cuddling a teddy bear after self harming again, and trying to find help...and someone from wattpad suggested this site so I guess I'm trying it out. 

Ps. My dad isn't usually like this, and he was probably just really stressed because they recently had a new baby and he's been doing a lot, but what he said still hurts...

Self Harm

Lastly got my sleeping pills . 0.5 not much ! I just need relax … 

I don't know what to do. Too confused. My eyes are already hurting.

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