I want to have someone to love… but it’s pretty hard. Because no matter what I do, I end up being to much or not enough?
Like… I just want a guy to spoil, to love, take care of, reassure him about the fact I love him, cuddle with, kiss, make him food (Even tho I’m still learning) and just make him happy.
You know those clingy, cute, shy but confident guys? Those who were hurt before but still are able to find a place in their heart for you? I want that… I want that guy.
But when I look at myself I just see a horrible teen, ugly, stupid and not confident enough. I keep reminding myself I won’t ever find “him” because I spend my night having scenarios, trying to get my hopes up.