I want to end my own mental country and use bullets to do so…
I fuck up everything and i cant do anything right. I destroyed my relationship with my boyfriend bc i lied so much and now he wont have sex with me bc i didn’t take matters into my own hands to make an appointment for one of those lil bars they put in ur arm. I feel like ive lost a part of him that ill never get back… and im losing myself…
it seems really shitty right, ur thoughts are messy, u are overthinking maybe, u don’t want to live because u lost an important piece of u. that made u happy. ur world is just crashing down and it’s hard for u to process.
Maybe u don’t want to live because of him or is there past trauma and this situation with ur boyfriend just pushed u a lil to feel what u feel ?
I fucked up… i want to end my life bc of me… this whole relationship has just been me fucking up everything.
do u want to explain why u say u are fucking everything up ? like why do u say it’s u ?
Bc it is me! My anxiety not being able to make appointments then asking my mom to make the appointment for me but that taking 10 months then me arguing with my mom abt it and then me canceling the appointment she made for me and my bf making me a new one the day after, then my mom saying that its not allowed bc my sister was is quarantine so i had to reset it to the 10th of feb and then at school my period starts. So i call the hospital to see when the next soonest appointment can be but then i forget to ask for the bar in ur arm that keeps you from getting preggers but they hang up im annoyed and frustrated so i dont call back and now ive had a fight with my bf for almost a week now and its all bc of me bc i couldnt make a fucking appointment im so fucking mad at myself i cant do anything right and i fuck everything up everything
why don’t u go to the pharmacy and get the injection, like every 3rd month u go for a shot ? i had it and it worked like 100%. and don’t stress urself too much. do what needs to be done.
He already doesnt want to be intimate with me anymore and thats not going to change…
did u guys end the relationship or what ?
Were stil together…
ok, the problem is around the whole clinic thing, with u not wanting to get the chip. but the other option can be the injection so if u get the injection, why wouldn’t he still not be physical with u ?
No thats the thing i want it i was just to scared to make the appointment and now its to late and im losing my shit.
do u maybe want to connect ?
Id rather stay anonymous
no problem.
why were u scared to make an appointment ?
Social anxiety
don’t they get u have social anxiety ???
He does the problem is just that its been 10 months and i still dont have the damn thing. He thinks i just dont want it but i do…
have u tried talking to him calmly about this, the things u told me ?
Yeah we argued and then he told me he doesn’t want to be intimate with me anymore and then he told me to cancel the appointment bc we’re never having sex again… and I cried and now here i am telling everyone… this all happened through snapchat btw
Yes
We argued amd then he told me doesnt want intimacy with me anymore i cried and now im here telling everyone bc im lost also this all happened on snapchat
We argued and then he said he didnt wanna be intimate with me bc he waited for 10 months this all happened on snap but i cried and now im here
i’m not going to lie, but that’s pretty fucked up of him to react that way. i think he’ll come around. how has things been this past 3 hours ?
Theyve been okay we talked it out were on a good page now but still no intimacy… i just really hope he changes his mind abt that…
give it time and see where things go. it might end up happy or it might end up in tears. only time will tell. Just don’t try to force him to change his mind.
Okay… thank you so much for ur help… it rly helped talking to someone abt it
it’s a pleasure. i hope u end up being happy happy. <33
Me to but i doubt it… I litterally gave him my virginity last valentines… and now… i might not ever have intimacy again… i only want him… idk what to do I really want him to change his mind… but i dont want to force him…
i’m in a way in the same situation, just n my case i have intimacy with my ex. and i reallyy want him back.
Ritika @ritti09
Heyyy Sweetie, relax beautiful. You are amazing, I can sense it but what you saying is not meant to be said. Be yourself and love yourself, spend time with yourself, meditation and explore yourself. You can drop me a mail , Ill send you a link of my community where you will find people who will raise your vibrations. Email - ritikapyma@gmail.com
I dont need that i need to be a good person… one who does things properly and doesnt fuck anything up
