Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I want to eat chocolates before i sleep and not worry about next week’s dentist appointment. i want to listen to old classics with my father and not get pissed at him because of the high volume. i want to make everyone feel a little better than what they feel and not be embarrassed about fucking up my one-minute speeches. i want to show up to class in a weird hairstyle and not overthink about what the bitch who hates me might think. i want to go on long ass walks an hour before my birthday and i want to find spontaneous inspiration in ice cream parlours and old rusted locks and bridges. i want to be as talented as my mother who can bake anything and i want to be as confident as my cousin who stays 13 hours away. i want to spend days in bed, writing about how eating christmas based chocolates is the best 3 some of the love i have and i want to stop having trust issues. i want to learn calligraphy and drums and i want to understand the logic behind every law in physics and i really want to stop being lazy and i really want to stop wanting things that i probably shouldn’t want. but for now, as cliche as this will sound, i’ll try to be okay with what i have right now. plus, baby steps hm, thats what they say now dont they?