I Want to die. Period. I dont find the purpose to live anymore. I am not able to be honest to anyone. But if i end up being honest I will end up hurting a lot of people. First my parents and relatives who are vigorously preparing for a marriage that I donβt want to do. My boyfriend who is madly in love with me but I donβt love him. Iβm 22. I want to have some years for myself. But nobody seems to understand it. Everybody thinks what they are thinking is right and that I am wrong. My parents donβt acknowledge my personal space and my want for love and a time for myself. But i am not able to tell all this to literally anybody. Not my parents not my friends not my boyfriend. I feel so dead inside. I want to live a happy life. I have the desire to live. But i cant be honest and feel really bad about myself. I just wanna end this pain so badly and wanna die. I wanna put a permanent end. I feel so bad about myself and miserable. Why cant I be brave amd stand up for myself? Why? ππππππππ. I cant handle itβ¦Its painingggggggggggggggg so badddddddddddddddd πππππππππππππ
Please donβt feel bad about yourself. Youβre not alone in this. Weβre all with you. Have you tried talking about this to your parents?sharing your thoughts with somebody will make you relieved. Iβm saying this out of my experience.
Donβt worry about anythingβ¦ Take careβ¦
Parents ππβ¦nopeβ¦they are partly the reason i am here nowβ¦if i dont accept to their opinionβ¦they use psychological warfare on me that they will i die if i dont acceptβ¦then how can i tell themβ¦my boyfriend is doing the same psycho warfare thingβ¦its so painfulβ¦and they justify this with loveβ¦does love has boundaries β¦loving someone is to let them free and all these people doesnt seem to understand itβ¦there is no point im talking to them
Ohh. In that case you just focus on improving yourself. I donβt know to give professional suggestions and all. But all i think is that you should work to be really independent. Feel free to talk to me anytime,even though i may not be able to give you advicesβ¦
Nothing seems to help anymoreβ¦but thank you for taking time to talk
Hi,
Once you die
Can you get back ur life???
See it is ultimately ur life
You will have to take a very firm stand for urself
This is going to be hard
But better than ending life
Just go n tell ur parents
U are feeling suffocated
U are just 22
You want spaceβ¦
U cannot live if space isnot given to you.
If you quit
What do you think will that not hurt ur parents ur bfβ¦
Do you think they deserve that painβ¦
Isnt it better to hurt them by expressing urself n being honest with allβ¦
When u can decide u want to die
Why cannot you just decide how u want to live
With whom u want to live
Yes they may be angry with you
But atleast u will be alive
N anger will fade
Tell ur boyfriend also everything clearly
Because just imagine n see if u take any extreme step
How will he face it
Imagine
Pls u deserve to live
Your life is precious
Pls be honest with everyone
Fight for ur rights
Donot run away
Face it
N u can do it
Just have faith in urself
This too shall pass
All will be fine
U will set everything fineβ¦
Take careβ¦
Just be calmβ¦
All the very best to u
God bless you
N i am extremely sorry if u find any of my words harsh
It is just that i wish well for u.