I want to change the job. I'm really frustrated with current job 

I have trained technology but got tagged to support project. I want to shift but i need to start learning new again

Actually I have worked in support role by unluck. I have tried on same role but there are no openings 

Yes I'm trying to learn but because of current job I'm working overtime 

Anxiety

I miss the smell of her hair 🥺

3am Thoughts

any one here who watch anime?

Friends

Am not feeling good about anything in my life. I fought for 3 years to marry love of my life. And have baby now. But I understand him more after marrying him. It was 5 years relationship before marriage. He is drinking habits , loans and other things making me stressed. Am also working women and am always unhappy. I helped paying his loans and working hard enough to support him. But he does betting and trades and lose his money. And go for drinks till early no with his friends. I find it very difficult to handle it. If I restrict him , he fights with me. I am not able to share my feelings with him properly. He thinks he is doing everything and am not understanding it. But deep down in my mind I know how much am fed of this relationship. What should I do? How to control my emotions? 

Depression

lately, I have been stressed, anxious, and depressed. I am also going through some tough sh*t at the moment since my dog died not long ago. I have turned back to cutting after being clean for 1y. I don't regret it because It makes me feel so much better like it helps relieve my pain and stress away.

Blue hai paani

Celebration

I am currently stuck in a situation wherein someone else's flaws are making me doubt myself. now I am not saying its their fault but there are limits to everything. I don't want to be blamed for the way my relationship is with him but his own shortcomings are making me feel that way. I always end up apologizing to him for something that I sincerly believe I haven't done. I can't change myself in a day. i get it, its frustrating for him but trust me its frustrating for me too. I have to live with my fucked up self every single day.  I have to deal with the fact that I cannot do emotions. I don't know how to. everyone tells me that I am empathetic and very loving but at the end of the day I am the only who can do something about it and honestly I don't know what to do. I don't know how to go about it. I don't know where to start. I don't know what I want.

but looking on the brighter side, I am glad I've realized what I lack and what I need to work on. and I hope this goes the way I want it too

Relationships

Anyone up for chat?

#sidhumoosewala dunia ta jeodi firdi shareeran naal ni,,,,jatt tera jeoda e jameeran naal ni 

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