Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I want old me how fearless I was , how independent and self content but now I am in constant need of validation , constantly thinking what others will think … trying to find boyfriend in every boy Ik its bad I become so so conscious about myself when I am around boys …I want to be free of self created boundaries like though I have so much to share , so much to talk but I tend to remain quiet . I feel affraid about saying something inappropriate or overshare things idk what’s happening with me but Ik it’s not good