I want a bestfriend ...
I dont have much friends .. And nowadays i am struggling in my own .. I want someone to whom i can talk..i can listen to them ... 


Hiiii, my name is Anonymous Panda and I want to be your friend. Well, I can't voice out but I can type :)

I want to be your friend too I'm confused_aathma

Friends

I have my exams tomorrow. My bones are aching.  My head aches. I feel nauseated. I just want to get into bed and never get up. I want to runaway from everything. I don't have anyone to share my problems with. I feel so alone and vulnerable. I just need to get past this. Please anyone out there pray that my exams go well. That's the only thing which is keeping me to go on. Rest there's literally nothing i look upto.

Anxiety

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Day spent well 😇😁🤩💫...
Dosto se mili.. baatein.. hasi mazak.. old memories... Sabke saath pics.. scooty ride... Phir kab milna hoga pta nai.. but yeah milna toh hoga zarur 😌😇.. 


I recently joined to work as a 2 month intern at this big biiig firm. The first day, I was in awe of everything. The office, the people, other interns. The place seems like a whole another world to me. As if I'm in one of those commercials where everyone is super rich and talks in English at their homes. Everyone looks and dresses so well and are so skilled and confident. And despite knowing how much of a great opportunity it is for me to learn and grow, somehow I have turned into this quiet, awkward and nervous mess. Everyone in my team is so sweet and kind, and they keep trying to get me to loosen up. But I act like I can't hold up a conversation if my life depended on it. I'm not even good at the work I've been given. Everyday I wake up and it is such a struggle to get out of bed, to get ready to go to the office and be an uncomfortable and incompetent nuisance to everyone around me. Recently I had to introduce myself in a meeting and I got so nervous, my voice trembled and I was so awkward. I just wanted to curl up and bury myself somewhere. 
I'm living far away from my home, in a shit PG, with a roommate who is LOUD and doesn't care invading my personal space. And being the pushover that I am, I do not say anything even when something bothers me. Also my roommate comes from a rich and fancy background. So when I'm not hating on them for being so loud, I'm intimidated by their life that is so different from mine. 
Also, I recently joined a committee in my college that does some really important work. I joined it because I thought I can work on interacting with people better through it, and I'm not that social so it would help me. But lately even that work has only been adding to the anxiety that I'm feeling constantly. I want to stop feeling so useless and busy and overwhelmed. I want to scream and cry and just talk about this. But I can't share this with my friends because I don't feel that close to anyone to bother someone with this. Honestly? I don't even know if this is a genuine issue or am I just being a whining brat. I can't talk to this to my parents because they'll worry so much and I won't be able to do anything about it. I can't share this with my brother who I am so close to because he has already enough issues he is dealing with. 
If anyone reads this rant, please do share your thoughts to me. Whether it's an advice, or a reality check that it's all just in my head, anything is appreciated. 

Adulting

time heals everything.....when I enter my college i make many friends...but later i know what they were😌
but I was having close friendship with 2 people...but it got ended in 1.5 year...now we merely talk..... initially it was difficult...but life is supposed to go....

I recently went through breakup and the girl used me for forgetting her past and now she left me in the middle of our journey... Now im in very bad mental health. 😥

Breakup

Nearly After 6 month I suddenly saw her profile in my insta suggestion. I messeged him aur todi baat hue hamari. Phir mujhe pta chla she was getting married with in few month aur august m uski ring ceremony hai.
After listing this i start memorising all the cute, funny, moments we spends together . Hum phle insta pe mile dost bne relationship m aaye aur mujhe aaya bhe yaad hai jab usne pucha tha bf banega mera to maine bola tha ‘‘best friend’’ naa aur vo gussa ho gye the. Aur aaj bhe vo SS mere drive pe save hai.Uska vo ladai karna, gussa karna ,video call pe hum dono ke bewkufo wale harkate ,call pe lambi baate,mera chidhana uska gussa karna phir use manana aur jab m 1st covid wave m hostel fas gya tha vo uska video call pe mese khana banwana sare baate yaad aane lgi aur ab lg rha tha ab vo mujhse bhut dur nikal gye hai. Hn ye meri he galti the I was the one who dumped him and didn’t take her granted and she was the one who always cares about me but us wakt halat he kuch aise the. Par aaj bhut regret ho rha khas maine usse baat kar le hoti us wakt to sayad nhi hota ye. Vo khte hai na jab koi apke paas ho to ap uski ahamiyat nhi samjhte aur jab pta chle ke vo dur jaa rha aur ab phle jaise bonding nhi reh payegi it hurts. It hurts a lot the absence of someone who was once there for you. I was not regreting the thing i’ve done i m regreting the thing i didn’t do when i had the chance. Yr currently abhi 1:51 ho rhe hai aur m balcony m baith kar uske baare m soch aur likh rha hu.

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