I wanna go  china to study but idk why people keep laughing at me for this wish!
Is it that wierd? Someone explain

Then why do people make fun out of me? Ik china have a bad side in people's eye but it also have good side as well

Why no? I find china beautiful & the uni i wanna go to is awesome

no i was asking like what do you want to study

Society

I'm surrounded by my friends and loved ones but I still feel like there's this void in my heart and I feel something's missing and I don't feel at peace. 

Lonely

All I be everyday whole day is hopeless, anxious, irritated and depressed, that's just not who I want to be, but I don't have will or any motivation left to fight. I've become so good in faking that I don't know now whether I'm faking everything or is everything happening inside is real. I get such strong impulses to just not exist and rather die. I don't want to die but I see no point in living like this. I have friends and family who love me but I can't even talk to them. I don't know what I'm doing? How am I going to live? What will I do? What's happening to me?

I feel nothing


Depression

Depressed, extreme sadness and negative thoughts frequently, scared of situations, negative thinking, wrong mindset, heavily tensed, confusions between things and decisions. Avoiding friends and social interactions, altogether is making me suffer like hell. Something is wrong with me..I don't know how to get out of this. 

Adulting

Energetic

Affirmations

I feel so lost, daddy was a little bit naive, mommy was a theft. I never had a family. I hide behind my hair most of the time.  its hard for me to remember who i once was. but i cant seem to remember.  but being alone and only having music most of the day is the best life gets when youre in a group home. once night comes demons enter every child and we have to fight. many of the kids tend to try to hurt you even if you did nothing wrong. im trapped most of my life. the only time i feel more alive is when im living in a fantasty world where nobody cares about how you look or what you do.  what people have done to me wasnt fair. my heart as a little girl had grown too fast. i didnt have innocence. pictures in my mind keep me locked up in my past. I feel like i am a broken girl. I feel like i have nothing.

Bullying

I don't know why my life is a mess........I just want to correct it..but I have no idea

Confusion

Dont know what should i tell about what i feel.
Its nothing.. nothing at all.
No pain, no hate, i just feel nothing.
I just see no point in doing anything.
I have done things, but what does anyone get in the end ?? Nothing.. its all the same. Same shit all over again and again. Then whats the point ? 
You put all the effort, you keep on clearing all your obstacles till you win one day but then what ? Next day you again lose the same, have more obstacles again. 
I mean, i see no point in life. 
Thats why i just feel nothing at all.
I am just living for i dont know why.. 
Without any purpose.. 
I am surely depressed as i have lost interest from everything, lost weight, and getting anti-social to a point where i have zero friends, no social media accounts, and i hardly go out of my house. 
But instead of all this.. i want to cure myself. But i dont know where to ask for it, and what will be the cost of it. 
My parents are so careless that they will blame everything on me, but won't help me out and will let me slip away further into a point where i will just end everything. I have explained it to them. But they never understand. 
And i dont know if anyone will ever understand me. 
Thats why i see no point in even talking or sharing. 
As its just goes round and round.. all the same thing, all over again. 

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