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A positive post
Today I met one of my school friend, he will marry his girlfriend in 2025 . And his relationship started in 2010 (14 year relationship ). I am happy that atleast someone is getting his love. Someone is setting an example that love still exists.

Love

How are you feeling right now??


Happy

Can anyone suggest me some of the best movies or series to watch rn, I would love to watch some sort of mystery/thriller or SciFi. Drop down comments I'll be reading all of them 😌👇

3am Thoughts

He is so fine. 
Just the kind of person i dreamt of. 
His flaws make him more handsome. 
The way he looks at me when he talks makes me weak. 
Those eyes make me wish he's mine . 
The kind toxic gentleman is he . 
Though i know he's not for me ... I always end up wishing he'll text me the way he used to . 



Crush

Hi. So I want to say a lot of things. I don't know where to start. Let's start with my mental health. I really don't think, that I am in a good state of mental health. I feel lonely. I feel like I have no one. I want someone with who I can share my feelings but somehow It's very difficult for me.
I am still trying to figure my sexuality or I can say that I know who I am but am not ready to accept it. When I was in my school, I have been bullied a lot. I have been called by names that you don't really like. I never had the courage to fight my bullies. They would call me names, 'touch' me', and then would leave. At first, I just let it go, now I see the consequences. I feel scared when a random bunch of guys are talking amongst themselves and I have to pass nearby them. I feel nervous to talk to strangers because I think they would judge me and make fun of me.

I almost had no friends in school. I remember sitting in some corner of my playground so that nobody would see me eating alone. I remember acting like I am searching for someone while roaming in the playground but in reality, I had no one to walk with and was looking for a place to hide. I remember how once I hid under my desk so that I can eat my lunch in my classroom(we were always supposed to go to the playground for lunch). Spending my time in a religious temple(in my school) because I had no one to talk to. I do remember everything. It brings nothing but sadness and pain to me.

Being different in my country is no joke! You are either male or female that's it. The condition might be improving but it will take ages to reach a level where It is ok for kids to talk to their parents about their sexual orientation without thinking that your parents would literally disown you.

I have literally made so many assumptions about how my parents would react when I come out to them that now, I feel irritated by them. I get this feeling to stay away from them.

They are really nice people. They have spent so much money on my needs and wants and never said no to me for anything. I try not to think negatively about them but sometimes it all just goes in vain. I do love them. Yes, I do. But the question "will they love me back if I come out to them?" haunts me.

I have no one to who I can talk about my situation. One of my friend who I thought that I should come out to were having a discussion and it was about LGBTQ. She legit told me(ON MY FACE) that "I don't think that parents would ever accept gay/bi/les children. No parent wants their kid to be different." 

I was so upset that day that my very good friend, who I thought I should come out to, thinks that its useless to come out because my parents would never accept it. I cry at times and it helps. Letting it all out makes me feel good. 


Stressing about my higher education is a new thing now for me. I had an emotional breakdown a few days back where I just couldn't do it. I give so much time to it but it always feels like I might not pass my exam and all my preparation would legit go in vain.

Why is life so hard on me? People always see me laughing but it's like that meme where I am legit wearing a mask and underneath it, I am crying hard. 


Mental Health

I used to have the most amazing friendship with this girl. all i wanted to do was spend time with her. now i barely talk to her, she doesnt greet me when i get to school anymore, she only ever talks to me and wants to be with me when there is no one else. idk wether i should let her go or try to build up our friendship again. pls give me advice

Friends

Hi 
Everyone. I have desperately been trying to seek answers or an understanding for what has happened in my life. I had a male best friend who i had known for almost 5 years we had an amazing connection always there for each other. Feelings were involved and we were on and off as BF and GF we had physical contact but our friendship always came first. There was a big age gap between us and hes always said he couldn't marry me as his family would not agree. Years went on and we got closer and closer. He was looking at potentials to marry which would always hurt me so much i tried getting into new relationships too as no matter what i said i about marrying me he didn't want to hear it or he would argue with me it hurt me alot knowing we were so good together he just would not make his the right way. He told me he had feelings for me he had alot of love and cared for me alot. We were a massive part of each others lives. Until he got engaged he was in tears telling me had feelings for me but his dad had chosen a girl for him to marry. But he had a choice and he chose her. We argued alot. As he said his feelings for me were as a  friend only. And that i was his past. Things got better and we were seeing each other still i know im at fault but i couldn't let him go i was holding onto whatever i could 2 weeks before his wedding he was with me. But then he got married it hit me hard. I didnt think he would actually go ahead and marry. Ive been in denial i thought i meant something to him. He thought it was just easy for me to accept it and move on. Like he has done. I have so much hate and resentment for him its killing me. I feel hes taken advantage off me used me till the very end and hes done one. He told me his wife would want to go through his phone and he couldnt keep the contact with me. After his marriage which was 2 months ago. Guess hes had a guilt conscious he was trying to contact me. But only to find out hes made lies up about me that he had been begging me to keep away from him he threatened me and then accused me of trying to break his marriage. How could my best friend turn out so cruel. Hes broken my trust completely everything's ruined. i lost my temper and swore at him and blocked him. I feel horrible. We have both blocked each other. But i cant accept hes just left me like that. He lied to me lied about me. I valued him so much. It hurts like hell. How can he be happy after what hes done to me?i used to think we would be friends for life. I meant nothing to him.
I cant cope its gone all wrong. 

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