I try not to compare myself with 'my guy' ex like literally i need to stop. We are all unique 😩 i should stress that on myself 

3am Thoughts

It’s been 4 years of being in a relationship and since last one year we’re in long distance.
I’m completely in love with this person but now I feel that he’s getting irritated by me. He was so caring and honest buy now he keeps secrets and hide things. From the past 5 days I’m crying because we are having fights but he is just okay with this. He says do what ever you want to do
If you want to stay you can and if you want to leave that is also okay. I can’t leave him. I’m so attached that I’m scared that everything will end. I don’t want to lose him.

Lonely

My ex made me hate myself in every possible way. My self-esteem became almost nonexistent. Crying daily and wishing I was somebody else. Someone better than him. Someone, he wouldn't have been able to manipulate and use. I was always there for him and did everything he asked for. All because I was blinded by love. I had such trust in him that I told him my deepest and most personal problems. However, that wasn't enough. I wasn't enough yet I tried everything trying to be. Changed myself, my way of talking, my friends, my behavior towards others, my likes and dislikes, trying to be miss perfect and he wouldn't leave me. He left me eventually and his persona changed completely. He isn't that sweet boy he once was. The boy who would ride his bike every possible day to visit me. His favorite thing to do was cuddling with me and telling me how much he liked me. Making me feel like the prettiest girl in the world. He is not the boy I fell in love with. He is now a fuckboy who states I was toxic and he was pressured into being with me. He is now happier making out with a different girl every night out and his mindset is how many girls he can fuck in one night. I guess that is something I need to understand.  Love is less valuable than sex and doesn't matter how much I tried to show him how much he meant to me. A thick girl good in bed will always beat me.

Breakup

I am 21yr old girl currently studying and preparing for MBA. I was in a 5 yr long relationship with a Man who is 7 yrs elder to me. Till we were bf gf, everything was ok not that good. We were madly in love with each other. When I turned 18, I eloped with this guy. We were completely different personalities with different goals in life. We used to argue and fight almost every other day. Finally, after getting frustrated of this vicious cycle, I decided to leave him and came back home after just 5 months of marriage. It's been 2 years that we are separated. I am happy in home but he isn't. He still coerces me to come back to his life. He says that he cannot live without me and if I give him divorce or try to get married to any other person, he will kill him and everyone in the family.  He threatens me and my family. I don't want to come back to him infact want to give him divorce. I'm even convincing him to get married and forget me. I don't know what to do now. He follows me wherever I go and spies. I am struggling with my relationship though I have moved on. Also there is no legal support as he shows his power. Though my parents are supporting me but still there is no permanent solution right now. I am focusing on my studies. I feel time heals everything and I am keeping patience but still don't know what to do?

Relationships

Quick doubt! 

These questions have been bothering me a while, and I know I cannot be asking people of opinions or decisions I had to make. But, I believe that we all have walked different paths in life and somehow what I’m going through will be something that majority of us has faced. 

So here it go, last Christmas my best friend proposed me and I said yes. We started living together from Dec to Feb and in the month of February he relocated so it’s Long distance. 

After he moved things changed, he wasn’t spending much time with me, and that big change did bother me a lot. I tried communicating with him about what I was feeling but it always ended in a fight.But I always blamed the situations and I never left his side or even thought of ending the relationship. I mean it’s the long distance. 

Fast forward to 1 month of Long Distance. He took a trip with his friends ( I don’t know them ). And, while he was on the trip he didn’t talk to me and I’m completely ok with it but he didn’t call and wish me on my birthday. It would take what 2 min to call? I was waiting waiting and waiting. And when I called to ask him about it he said he couldn’t call me. I was upset but I let it go. 

Next day, he said he wants to end things bc he cannot be in a relationship right now bc of had financial issues with family, he needs to figure out his life and so on. I was so hurt and my mental health was down. I couldn’t sleep or eat, I’m not being productive all day. I felt like I was easy to give up, I felt used and betrayed and a lot more. 

I always had hope that things will work out I understood he was stressed he blocks and then unblocks me. It’s a never ending cycle. And I have fear of being abandoned, so every time he unblocks I used to tell him that it triggers me a lot and he blocks me anyway later. 

On going through all of this, today I noticed a picture of him with a girl, she was hugging him tight. I don’t normally have doubts or insecurities. But, he said he doesn’t talk to his parents , friends or anyone. He said he felt stressed on figuring out his life, he said he needs to prioritise himself and he can’t even spend 5 minutes of his day talking to me. And I’m sure the picture was a recent one from the trip. 

I feel rejected and I also noticed that his best friend who was following me on Instagram has unfollowed and removed me from his followers list. Should I consider this as a official breakup and just move on? 

Oky after some days i m dealing with depression my behavior totally change nd I think I should talk my boyfriend what I feel nd I m not feel well nd I tried to explain him directly indirectly nd he act like oky he don't even ask me hows I m feeling now how I deal with it we just arguing with each other I really feel fuckin bad   nd I think he trying force him self to love me and I said him clearly don't do this pls be honest nd he was like I just love you nd I can't feel it honestly 🥺 now I m fighting with my self to believe him or not🥺 nd I don't have any friend who give me a better suggest I feel fuckin loneliness

Depression

There was a guy I was trying to date, we both were trying to understand each other. But I was getting mixed signals. I asked him once but he took it as a joke or didn't reply nicely. 
Then I met a guy today who was behind me for year. I asked him to date me. But he didn't say anything and wanted to kiss me casually. But I said no. He didn't reply anything.
The same day, first guy explained everything to me and said that we need to understand each other. I asked him if he is okay with me talking to other people, he said yes he is.
I texted second guy too about talking/seeing other people and said that I'm asking to be exclusive. He said why are you giving me so many explanation. But he still didn't reply anything. 

Did I do anything wrong although I coeared everything with both of them and sort my feelings rather than double dating. 



I want to tell him that i miss him a lot. 
I want to spend my life with him.
But i just can’t, it wont matter, he wont have anything to say to me and he wont even be happy.
I feel like i want to kind of “request” again, to try for our relationship BUT IT MAKES NO SENSE FOR FUTURE. 
I wish I hadn’t feel this way about anyone, specially with the one who was never too much into the relationship because we had no future. 
He did made it very clear from the starting but i wanted him to change because i liked him and thought maybe he will change his perspective.
But after these 5 years, i am standing again at that point of my life where i was before except that i am deeply hurt now.

Hi all
I m jobless and recently my bf bursted on me as I m not working since pandemic and if I will not work his family won't let us marry as they see no positive point in me...2-4 days back he bursted on me as his relatives and family is after him to get married..well my fault..I don't blame him for everything..but our relationship suffered too and v r trying to make it beautiful and I m trying to get some job..I don't understand why Indian families/ relatives take kids marriage so personally

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