I tried to end my life last week and I failed. I survived twice. One from the domestic abuse. Second, from overdose. I don’t know why I am still alive and living with my abusive husband. The cycle never ends and he always justify that violence is efficient way to make me do things that I don’t want to do. After all the inflicted blows, an apology makes him free from the consequences that he did to me. I’m getting numb of being a punching bag. I am soaked with toxicity but I had to live even if my life sucks. I had to live even if I’m not happy. I am a living ghost and I will still work and had to do activities of daily living over and over again.
Why aren’t you reporting him in the police for it?
He studied law. He can get away with it. I did not have the courage to walk to the police station and report.
I may sound rude but no gurll
Just please leave ur husband please
Classic domestic abuse reason, I can’t. I have no resources. I don’t know where to start. I also think about what will happen to him when I leave.
Just beat that person
Start it girl
I tried but the beating got harder and more fatal. I’m not sure how am I still alive. I wished he ended it.
Women aren’t sex machines or punching bags u are a human first
Thanks for the reminder. Today, I was slapped for being vain and stubborn. After a long fight, we called for clean slates but going back to this entry a month ago makes me realize that the cycle really never ends.
You have to end this.
That person is using ur body to beat you, to touch you, to lick you and all that.
Fight for yourself. Girl you have a voice
Thanks for the reminder. My thoughts are going that route again but today, I choose to move forward.
Kitna time hua h marriage ko?
Do u have any child?
File for a Divorce
No divorce in our country. In case we separate, he will take everything and leave me with nothing. He made sure of that.
I know it may be seem hard but you can’t live your life being miserable, leave him and take care of yourself <3
Thank you for the reminder. I have been looking after myself but having this trait was being labeled as selfish and vain. My husband is a simple guy. He is not shy for being a cheapskate. He sees self care as luxury.