I tried so hard to not ruin this year 
To feel 
To be happy
To put in effort 
To want to live 
To change 
To improve 

What did it all do to me 
Got hurt even more 

What the hell should I do now 😭

Depression

Ankhiyan ch paani le ke 
Dard kahani le kr 
Kisi gali mod pr mara hota 
Agar tuu na hota too mera kya hota....!! 
Kisi shayar ki baddua hota.... Agar tuu na hota too mera kya hota!! 🙂❤

Music

I know that Diwali is a time when a lot of people go back home and celebrate with their family. But as a therapist, I've also seen a lot of people who find this time even more challenging and uncomfortable. This is just a reminder that your feelings are valid, not everyone has a great relationship with their family. And if things get worse, you can always reach out for help ✨🪷

Compassion

Okayyyyy.. what would u do if ur m.u.m sow ur me&now app chats/posts( specuficlly ur posts)etc.. 

Mental Wellbeing

Anxiety is killing me. I have high fever, heart palpitations and can bust into tears any second…. May have a bad breakdown…
Things and home are not good. Stress is going on between family members they might fight… and this is making my conditions worst… may be I am in initial phase of anxiety attack..
It’s Sunday can’t go out of home to escape this situation too…
Please help… please talk to me if I can..

Anxiety

She said, "We should take a break and give ourselves more time to think about our relationship and make a decision."

I responded, "I don't like the idea of taking breaks when nothing is going wrong, but since you mentioned it, you can take one. I won't mind, and text me whenever you think it's time to talk. I won't send you the first text."

She explained, "I just want to be sure about us and make sure that this is not just a fling. I'm doing it for our betterment; please don't take it otherwise."

I replied, "Sure, take care."

She started typing for too long but never sent anything….🤦‍♂️

Bc 2 weeks ho gaye, uska msg nhi aaya and I am missing her so badly 
😭😭😭

Emotional Abuse

So, I haven't posted on here since February and its because I've been feeling a little better. I don't think I have though. I just kind of felt empty and worked so much to mask the pain I was feeling. But recently I've been feeling like a huge screw up. It just feels like I am always messing something up. And I completely hate myself. People tell me to stop trying to be perfect and stop being negative and isolated but its just too hard. I mean when you spend 22 years of your life hating every aspect of yourself how can you change that? 22 years of the same behavior needs to change. I mean is that even possible? The days that I work I feel okay. But the days that I'm off I feel horrible. It takes me forever to get out of bed, if I even make it that far. I usually just stay in bed till the next day I have to work. My dad gets mad at me for "sleeping" all the time. I literally tell him I'm not sleep I just want to be alone in my room. Its nice and cold and no sun light comes in. I love it. As soon as I get up to try and interact with my family I instantly get irritated. Its so hard. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just wanna stay alone and unbothered. But when I do I feel lonely? But I don't wanna interact with the people in my house? I really wish I could figure out what was wrong with me. Thanks for listening to my rant if anyone read this. (: 

3am Thoughts

Koyi apni marzi se thodi na udaas rehta hai yaar 🙃

-My standards are high because I've lowered my standards for people in the past and all I've learned is I'm better off alone.

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