I think self harm for me was always an escape. I made a cut so deep, I had to get 16 stitches and i felt nothing, I stared at the cut and felt comforted. I didnt think about what was going on in my mind, what made me do it, what triggered the emotions out of me. I was blank. All I saw was my mother weeping and trust me, not a single moment did I feel guilty. I wanted to get help, I asked for it. My mother then acused me of being too weak. I didn’t have the permission to cry, if I Cry, its a sign of weakness. I’ve stayed cold for so long, I don’t feel anything anymore.
Simran Patel @simranpatel
Thank you for sharing this with us. It’s not a sign of weakness to ask for help. Please don’t let your mom’s words not let you get help. You’re not weak. You’re just lost. I hope you find the strength to get through this. Praying for your recovery❤️
I’ll fight through this, thank you! <3
Hey Keerthana. Thank you for sharing this with us. I am so sorry that you were going through something because of which you had to go through these extreme measures to harm yourself. I can’t even begin to understand what you must be going through, all I can say is that personally I believe we harm ourselves and that comforts us in a way because we already feel SO MUCH emotional and mental pain, that we want to get rid of that by giving ourselves a physical wound and physical pain. But that does not improve the situation, only worsens it. I would request you to kindly take professional help, talk to someone about what you’re going through. It would help you heal. Please do not suppress your emotions. It’s okay to cry and it’s not a sign of weakness. You are allowed to feel the feelings of whatever it is you’re going through. I hope the best for you champ, more power and love to you!❤️
Aw, thanks for having the patience to type it out. ?