I think I am still stuck in Nov 2019.
2 year of relationship. I was loved, cared, been honest, been lied to, cheated on. Convinced myself things will change and they did but only for 2 years.
After 2 year this guy cheated me with someone I knew, my family friend, partially my mentor. She knew we were in a relationship still they were togather got physical. I had no clue about it for 1 month. This guy left me without any warning or giving me any reasons. I doubted myself begged him to stay been just physical to feel close to him without knowing he was sleeping with someone else also. I found out one day and I was into broken pieces. He had no courtesy of giving me any explanation whenever I use to why are we breaking up or why you not talking to me, he always said he was done with relationships he want to be alone for a while. But he was okay being physical.
I got to know about the relationship but I was still involved with him because I just couldnât let go.
March,20 he broke up with that girl because he felt he made a mistake, he was back talking to me. I was selfish I wanted him. I continued speaking to him.
November, 20 he found someone else she is married
January,21 he is with someother fling.
And now we arenât talking.
Because no matter how much I love him he is really okay losing me. And I know sleeping with will not get him back. But it was really special. I think I will get over it but I keep thinking about it and he is okay with everything makes me stuck weak and emotional fool.
There was a time he couldnât wake up with out a call now he doesnât even care if I exist.
This amuses me next level & my heart hurts and I canât stop it.
Well, first of all its okay to love someone madly when if he doesnât love u back. But consider ur self respect above everything please. And there are so many decent boys out there, you should give yourself another chance. Meet up with someone new and know how you feel. There is so less time for everything on this earth thats why i say live it completely with no regrets. Hope you will make ur decisions wiselyđ€
I can understand. Because I have also been through the same. But he was good initially later I donât know if I over loved him or crying over-attachment. But I gave my 100% only to realize it doesnât matter to him. His words never matched his action still I continued to love. What I mean to say is at the end we have to let it go (I know itâs not easy been through it) you can still love someone even if that person is no more in your life because you never faked your love. Just believe that he is not lucky enough to have you in his life. Flings are time pass but one day he will definitely realize what you were and what you did for him. Distract yourself from thoughts talk to other people, meet new people enjoy your single life. Dress up nicely. Look in the mirror every morning and say to yourself you can do it, you love yourself more than anyone. Trust me this will help you need to heal dear.
