I texted my ex and he just came me a cold shoulder and just acted as if he didn't even know i exist and it's making me feel worthless and shitty as if I have no self worth 

Yea but i apologized , I just got mad when they told me something that made me feel replaced 

Yeah if he can ignore your existence then why can't you! 

So if he is your ex now, does still he should get your attention??

Self Esteem

suicidal thoughts are what cross my brain. Suicidal thoughts to ease the pain. Suicide is where you decide. Can you rely on yourself when hes inside making you feel like your love has died but you know that the only thing on your mind you love him too much you love him to much you cant even decide to love yourself cant even call for help instead you give yourself hell pain is only said well by yourself noone else can see what you feel smile so no one can tell your suicidal even tho you know its my world u choose to be killed by the only thing that can help. Yes thats whats crosses my brain its what eases the pain ive decided that its not two sided its yourself thinking suicidal. 

Suicidal Ideation

This might be weird but is it good to have prom on ur birthday?

How do i get my thoughts approved? 

Confusion

Everything happens so fast, it's like if you stop to breathe, you get there last. Everything is always moving, it's like if you turn to look, everyone is already leaving. The hustle and the bustle of every day life, its like a competition and you're walking on the edge of a knife. The failures and success of everyone around, it's like treading deep waters and battling on ground.

What is yours will come to you, its the balance of nature that's always true. When it should it'll always happen, there's no point hurting before the pain. Where you deserve you will get, you just prepare and get set. Why would you compare and get all tense when all you gotta build is a little patience! 👀


Motivation

How do boys flirt then? Inspired from the other thought about how girls flirt

Relationships

Hi there!

29/04/23

The day was passed mostly sitting on the bed. Studying for 2 hours except that wasting time on phone and laptop watching random information.

3am Thoughts

Don't you think there are alot of issues with the process of arranged marriage in our indian society. I, being a 25 year old female batchelor find this whole process to be exhausting mentally & emotionally.
👉First of all 1 fine day our parents decide that its the time to get our daughter married. They start searching for suitable boy. Tell 1000s of relatives, friends to look for nice boys. Untill here, its fine.
👉Then comes the part where girls family find few suitable match for their daughter.
👉Now its time to get ready to be judged by boy, his family and his 1000s of relatives. I have came accross boys and family who want girl with these qualities.
⚫ Very young girl of age between 22 to 26. No matter if the boy is 30 or plus.
⚫ Good looking and fair complexion. No matter if the boy is dark and not handsome.
⚫ Perfect height between 5.2 to 5.5 feet. Should be shorter than the boy obviously. 
⚫ Perfect hour glass body with perfect weight proportion. Not fat, not skinny. Just perfect.
No matter if the boy has double chin and handing stomach.
⚫ Girl should be well behaved, educated, quite, friendly, can cook, do household work, can take care of family, can drive.
⚫ Should be earning by working in office. But the boy and family will not let her work after marriage.
⚫ Should have rich family background, because doury and gifts are important. 
As soon as the picture is shared with boy and family they start judging her physically. Many a times they decline to meet just after seeing pictures.
This all is very draining for girl and her family. 
After a few denial, family starts tourting daughters that maybe there is something not good about her, because she got rejected so many times.
This is worst kind of torture one can give to young females. Society needs to make this proocess easy. We all need to understand that there is no one with such perfect qualities.
Similar things are happening with me. I just wish this search of perfect partner ends soon and i am in my mental peace again.

Marriage

I have been think about this moment  and remembering  the future .... Read that again.. 

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