I support my father ever since I got to know he started to have suicidal thoughts due to his depression led to alcoholism. For some reason, I thought I held responsibility in this though process of his. And ever since then, I have been trying my best to counsel him, and tell him psychology terms that it is okay to feel what you are feeling. I have been trying my best to be as resourceful as I can, while balancing my studies, mental health, exams etc.
i felt so disheartened yesterday when he was searching for a document, and he literally said “it’s like I never got support in anything from you gus (my sister and I)” I was so taken aback, because I have been trying my best. Whenever I have a hard conversation with him, I not only allow him to experience his deep buried emotional traumas, I also have to do the same for me, and it is exhausting.
I have trying to have some fun, like going out with friends, dying my hair and staying up till late, and he just can’t take it.
I’m just trying my best to do and balance everything, and I know I’m not very good at it, but calling when I am with my friends and yelling at me when I am having fun, just doesn’t cut it.
Rune @rune02
I m also in similar situation…I m supporting my dad taking care of him and all he says he u guys only think abt urself…my mom is in heaven I m happy that she is there…if she would be here seeing him in amputation and depression…she would have breaked in 1,00,000 pieces…I m doing everything possible thing which I can…sacrificing my freedom for him…cutting myself from my friends…just for him…hoping for a normal life
anuj @anujvohra
Great to hear this that you are supporting your father. My best wishes to you.
anuj @anujvohra
It happens. Take care of yourself.thanks for sharing
