i suck at relationships and you’ve been the one to experience just how bad at them i am. i’m sorry for that bc even after such an on and off relationship between us you continue to love me, to want me. i don’t even know why you’re still in my life, i’ve hurt you too many times and i can’t promise that i won’t do it again but you know that. i’m trying. i hope i do better this time, but you deserve better. 

Relationships

In the process of loving you, I lost sense of who I am. I thought it was a good thing, but now I realise I don’t even know what I am. I lost myself. I lost my mind. I lost who I am. And that’s bad, you were supposed to be my friend, my support. But you never failed to fail me everytime I needed you. It was always someone else rushing to my aid and never you. I’m sick of everything, I just want it to be over. We were better of as friends, and I think we’ll be better off as friends. I still love you, but it’s not worth losing myself over. 

3am Thoughts

I miss the memories from last year

Memories

I'm not moving on but I'm letting you do your thing. I may not be talking to you, but if you would call or message me,I will respond.

I may not greet you in the morning, but you're the last person I think of before I sleep. I'm just focusing on myself, but I can't deny that I'm missing you so much.

I wish. I could talk to you, but I know where I stand. I know my worth and importance. You will always be here. My heart will remain open for you.

Dreams

Past memori


Anxiety

we always say i deserve better or you deserve better. Do we really? if yes then why dont we get them what if we really dont just deserve them. maybe i deserve the bad things only

After all things happen with ourselves is it fine to carry hope???

Loss

How do you stop yourself from loving someone when you know it'll never work out?

One Sided Love

This for my ex even tho she's not gonna see it anyway but I need to take it off of my chest...
I want you to know that I'm thankful for you being in my life, I'm glad we met and made memories good and bad. Many people say that in ldr you can't get attached, some say it's not even a real relationship, but I know that what we had was real...and even though you made me cry night after night, even thoughour relationship was toxic af I'm still thankful. I'm thankful because you were the first person that thought me what love is, you were the first person I loved soo much that I was willing to ignore all of your flaws, I couldn't imagine my life without you, I hoped that in real life we would be better but unfortunately we didn't got there.
I know I wasn't amazing either, I'm sorry for slowly distancing myself from you but I was getting suffocated. And as much as I still care about you I hope we're not going back together.
I moved on already, kinda=/, it still hurts thinking about you, I'm still crying when I'm thinking about you, but I'm happy we're over and I'm thankful for showing me what love is and how it feels...
I hope you'll move on too and maybe you'll be better than me...
And who knows, maybe we will meet again in another life...just like you always wanted❤️

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