I recently wrote a poem about my daily struggles with life and wanted to share with you all. I hope this isn't my last poem. I will continue to write as long as I live!!

I wander in the dark abyss of pain
Where life and death seem equally in vain
I have no courage to embrace or flee
The fate that binds me to this misery...

The gods and goddesses have turned away
And left me in this endless night and day
I have no faith to guide me or to save
I only feel the anger of the grave...

I speak in vain, I utter absurd things
I have no hope of what the future brings
I do not know what sin has brought me here
I only know I am a wretch in fear...

Am I a bad person? I never was
I only sought to live by nature's laws
But now I'm in this deep and dreadful hell
And cannot find a way to break the spell...

If I could get out of this hell, I swear
I would write poems of the life so fair
I would praise the gods and goddesses high
And most importantly, the life so nigh...

Akash 

Depression

My Dad is pissed

All my life there wasnt one person who could actually showup if i needed any help! And today iam very grateful for this one person in my life who has eased up my difficulties in a span of seconds. For the very first time in my life i feel iam so so lucky to be blessed with such person. I still cant believe! 😭🤍🌻✨

Gratitude

Just a thought which is constantly on my mind...I'm a bisexual guy..I have never dated anyone but I want to have s bf so bad but no one in sight at the moment 

Boyfriend

Key to happiness is strength and courage. 

Happy

**I saw a post
So if you are looking for a sign this is for you**
It took me some time to see that not everyone will stay. But not everyone is supposed to.. And it's not always because of you. it's more than often - because of them. But that's okay because.. not everyone is meant for you. When we involve ourselves with people, its inevitable to risk our heart - knowing theres a possibility that it may get broken or misused.. but the beauty in life is.. sometimes we take that chance and everything works out the way we hoped it would.. or we learn that it worked out the way that it should. It's okay to involve yourself in a relationship or friendship and have absolutely no expectations - because regardless of where it may go... you'll still grow. Not everyone you lose is technically a loss.. more than often it's a blessing in disguise. It's up to us to change our attitudes and perception of things in order to see the situation for what its really worth. Sometimes we have to step outside of our heart.. and focus on the true meaning of it all. Sometimes we rush people into things and sometimes we, ourself, put ourselves in situations we aren't a thousand percent sure of or ready for. Give people time. Give people space. Don't beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What's meant for you will ALWAYS be yours. In the mean time.. Work on yourself. Learn yourself. Figure out what you do and do not want from a partner and/or relationship.. so if ever - they do come back. you know that you're not the kind of person who deserves to be put on layaway.. you're not the kind of person who deserves to wait. you're not the kind of person who deserves to commit just to be left abandoned.. and if you aren't ready or aren't sure.. they deserve to wait on you to make sure that this is what you want.. and if you decide this isn't what you want after all.. close the door behind you. Someone better will come knocking sooner than later. Be patient.. 
- *unknown author*
Moral- begging or  pleasing people never make them stay...just give your best and if they still leave even though they got the best its their loss to lose someone  precious worthy like you.... don't doubt on yourself...just work on yourself to be better for you every single day ...you got this... Take caree ✨
- Queen 👑 

Mental Wellbeing

I want to hurt myself. I can't deal with this trauma anymore. I just wanted to talk to someone. Anyone 

3am Thoughts

Recently got graduated, and now it's time to start my 9 to 5, fuck!!!
I need some money to start on my own, for tht i gotta do the job, to save some money..
I lost contact with my clg friends.
I don't knw where to start.

I completed my BE in CS last year. I got a campus placement in a company, but resigned within 3 months as the work there didn't interest me much, plus I wanted to try out things like starting a business and a career in freelancing. I applied for a small company on LinkedIn who were looking for a freelancer. They ended up taking me as a full time employee. The work was basically to communicate with a Bluetooth device and display data in the mobile app. I made an application for them within 3 months and within the next 6 months I developed another mobile app and a desktop app. But, for the past few days I wasn't happy with the work I was doing. There wasn't any skill addition besides communicating with the device. So, I decided to call it a quit and put on a resignation yesterday. Today, the founder called me and explained to me all kinds of different things that they have planned to do. He is very arrogant and doesn't give a damn about his employees. But, instead he called me twice and tried to convince me in every way possible. Here, comes the main problem. I am getting convinced by his talks, but back of the mind I know what the future holds.He called me to the office but I skipped it until Wednesday. I am very afraid that I might get convinced and stay. But, I know that staying here is going to make things worse as I have gotten into his head right now. I have to serve 3 months notice as well. Now, how the hell can I say him no. He literally has an answer for every reason I am giving. He has me under total control. I am just not able to say "I don't want to work with you. That's it". How can I get out of this? 

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