I recently started having nightmares…it’s about my father he did something which affects me and my mother…now I have nightmare everyday about him whenever I sleep and because of this I try not to sleep and I’ve caused myself insomnia and this is just unbearable for me atp.
I feel you . It is hard to even close your eyes a bit . And the worst part of this nightmare is that you are eventually waking upto another .
Truely said, because of those nightmares I’ve started questioning myself every single moment of every single day…I’ve developed crippling anxiety as well. Atp I’ll be happy to just feel or be numb to everything.
The anxiety is a real B which makes it a thousand times worse . Somedays i wake up and i can’t help but thinking “why the frick did i just wake up” along with a relief of waking up from that nightmare. But here’s the thing. You don’t know what to feel or how to feel when you wake up . It’s hard af !! Like you wake up and feel a relief that you woke up from a nightmare at the same time thinking why did you wake up to this reality . It questions your whole existence . It messes you up and tear you apart . It’s confusing how to feel and what to feel .
That’s the similar experiences I’ve been going through my friend and when I look at myself in the mirror after waking up I see a person whith nothing but darkness in himself…but the thing which is helping me to keep going on is Faith! I have a bit of faith left that I’ve been put in this world for a reason and for me is to give my mother the world she deserves…I hope you find some faith as well…this pain and darkness is eternal we can’t help it…We just need a ray of hope and well start to endure it and keep going on.
Prem Gautam @premgautam
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