I recently found out that I am adopted. I am 18 years old now and my parents waited for me to find out until now. They didn't tell me much details and honestly I don't really mind because these 18 years have been the best years of my life. I owe my parents everything.

So glad to see how positively you are accepting this and how grateful you are! This is wonderful.

Relationships

How disappointed do you feel with your parents? For me it's a little bit, but it's everytime whenever I feel comfortable with them. Sometimes the comfort that I feel, scares me for the hurt, that I would get from them again. Ironically, the little disappointment that I feel, is enough to get me down in my bed crying for hours. Surrounded with the questions, is my feelings valid, or am I just overreacting, visioning my childhood version crying in the dark room as am I now.

Depression

Anybody from Dubai or planning to shift??

Immigration

My parents do not respect my boundaries at all!!!  

It’s so frustrating! And it’s even worse coz I’m in my 20s. And they keep on violating it so much! 

Parenting

Anyone here have parents toxic or who dosent love you back ?

Some parents have an illusion that they have done a good parenting when they have utterly failed at it. I can't take this shit anymore im going to show them the reality. 

3am Thoughts

I dont like when my parents keep discussing about me...so annoying... actually anyone who does that.  I just hate everyone

Family

How can parents not love their child just for not being academically excellent ? Having to beg to be loved is so hard especially when it's your own parents. Is it too much to ask for ?I literally can't get closer to anyone or love anyone who isn't family . I don't have friends, I don't have siblings, I don't have a lover and I just love my family unconditionally. I have even told my dad how I feel because I literally don't even have anyone else to tell all this . Since they know how I feel and how they've made me feel. I am literally proud of myself and I will never be ashamed of myself. All I want is unconditional love if it's not unconditional then it's just that your drawn to something you admire.I've been marked for my academic achievements haha I am treated like trash because I don't score how he wants me to and I don't get anything without my academic scores being assessed.I've literally been raised alone and have no siblings or friends it makes it so hqrd for me to bond with people.. my parents didn't ever encourage me to have friends(I'm an extrovert and I have friends but none with whom I share a bond and can't love them to the fullest because I've never had a bestfriend for more than 6 months) and say they were just enough for me. But had many friends and people to share their happiness and sorrows with while I'm all alone. I am just so scared that nobody will ever love me unless they see what they want in me. And yes it's been an absolute dictatorship here. I've been deprived of choices yeah I don't mind living for others yeah If it makes me happy I'd do it but it never did. I've never had a choice be it a color or what I study . Everything I have is what he likes and my likes and dislikes never mattered my choice is indecent even before he knows what it is. Spending time together is a miracle. Being available always is impossible .I just get jealous when I see other fathers expressing love for their sons and daughters. I wonder if I am the worst son. After all I may not be an achiever according to him but I own every failure of I'm because I've learnt from it and succeeded . Just pointing out my flaws and talking about me being financially dependent on  him (neither was he at my age) oh yeah every fight starts from thetopic of money haha literally the least spent on me. I'd rather prefer to grow in a an orphanage with the just thatsame spent on me atleast be loved by someone.who boasts about providing basic necessities for their own family?All this is extremely toxic especially when he says I cannot ever be equal to him or achieve anything in life like him(narcissistic) tbh idc I feel I'm far better than him right now and don't want to be him . I have an amazing mother who loves me a lot but just fails to understand me well.I'm tired of feeling that I am just not good enough . Ik communication and understanding can solve these problems but I just hope it's two side because only then things will get sorted  or maybe I should move to a hostel so that the time and the space helps them realize. I have no happy memories maybe I do but are blocked by the negatives .I know that the three of us love each other a lot but don't understand each other well. I hope that changes. l have never been hurt by the insults because I own every flaw of mine because that's what made me stronger and I'm proud because I am honest with myself. Sometimes I think that the fear of someone else hurting your loved one makes you hurt them the most which is absolutely toxic. 

Lonely

How do I improve my relationship with my parents? They are not at all understanding . Always challenging me.There is a huge generation gap.I want to live and do a job away from my home just because of this.


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