I really need someone to talk to... I'm feeling so depressed and going through a lot in my life right now. And I haven't had my medicine (weed) and I need it. I'm depressed because I haven't had it. Can someone talk?

Depression is one of those things who loves to tear people down mentally, physically and emotionally. Trust me i know. Your medicine is one of your things which can help you think clear and relax. 

Depression

hello everyone how are you feeling well 
did you eat, sleep well if your response is no than why 
if you want you can talk to me
i am here 
don't worry 

Happy

My dad promised to buy me something really important. But the thing is, he has been sleeping a lot lately because he drinks a lot. And it's a necessity for me to buy it. Is it stealing if I make the payment on my own with his card? We did talk about me buying that thing before he relapsed 

3am Thoughts

I am just out of my worst time .. I have not been able to sleep and eat anything . It felt empty and I was unable to move at all .. I don't know why this happens to me .. I m littrally writing this right now after I got better because it's hard to talk when you are at your worst . Even now I feel like this world will be better without me ... Humans have feelings and we need to keep complimenting each other and thats what I am lagging . I am feeling demotivated and not loved at all . 

Anxiety

I sugarcoat my words and feelings. I say things so that i dont hurt anyone. Sometimes it makes me feel two faced coz my raw unfiltered and unedited emptions, feelings and thoughts can be very painful (accurate too ). Its not that i always do it but i do it a lot cause i care about how other people feel and i wish to be treated respectfully and my emotions be respected too and so i give others the respect. But sometimes i wish i wasnt so respectful. And sometimes i shout get back . I am a soft person as many people feel but i know can be real evil at times , especially when i get angry. My tolerance for shit is generally really high but sometumes i worry that i shouldnt have it so high because when someone by mistake triggers the threshold they get the whole brunt of it and it can get real ugly . I have been working on my anger management as well so that i dont really become dangerous for people around me and address it in a healthy way. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Sometimes i wish i could be honest about everything for the whole day and see how the day goes  . 

Anger Issues

today asked my 10 year (born 2011) sister "What are Power rangers?" which i grew up watching 
and the answer i got was "Pata nahi"
.....
Someone understand my  level of shock 



myself a big fan of Power Rangers SPD and also Jungle fury too

Growing Up

Hey, how can i make new friends and connections

Confusion

my parents are telling me to go into a completely different field but im not really.. like i don't think that field is for me it's not that it's not interesting but i don't want to go into it. i want to do something i really love. now that i only have few months like only two months to make a decision they are saying so many things like brainwashing me that they always know that best for me and all that. my mental condition is getting so worse. i don't know what to do. they have always been like that. im 18 years old but still it's like i have to do everything they tell me. EVERYTHING. im so sick of this. and also they are like anyway just get a bachelors degree and even masters if you want like ANYWAY YOU'RE GOING TO MARRY AFTER A FEW YEARS and they keep telling me that whatever i choose anyway im going to end up as a housewife. I DON'T WANT THAT. and i seriously don't want to get married i swear i have thought this through i don't want to get married. i have so many things already planned for my future. i want to start my own business and go into a career and field i love and i have all that figured out but they keep confusing me i want to build something of my own and achieve things! i want them to just trust me this once and let me explore and try new things. i just really want to be free this feels like it's not even my life as my parents make every decision for me even what clothes i should wear or not and how i should act around people. they always want me to be all sweet and kind and smile like an angel and greet people and IMPRESS THE SOCIETY they say that they care but they really don't. im so sick of acting like someone im not. im not someone who scores the worst marks im really an above average student and i know i have so many interests and things i want to do. i know and i believe that im capable if i just WORK HARD and get a little bit of support from my parents. i don't want to end up as a housewife i rather die than live my life just cooking food and reproducing and impressing everyone and spending my life with someone i don't love. you know how arranged marriages are in india. ughhh. they just don't want to support me and take risks because im a girl and it's no use of job or building a career because anyway i have a future already set up for me that is being a housewife. im so damn sick of this i swear. please do something.

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