I really need someone to talk to I feel so fucking awful right now I can’t. There’s so much inside me I feel like I’m going to burst. There was this guy that I completely fell for. I would’ve done anything for him. I loved him so much that I lost my own self. Then I found out that he likes this other girl. This other girl, who was everything I wasn’t. She was rich, pretty. Whereas I was just ugly poor old me. I’ve already been suffering from depression and anxiety since I was 11. I’m 17 now. But that broke me. Completely. I lost myself really bad. After a couple of months I felt better a little, but I had these delusions. It was like the whole event was happening over and over again. He’s always here. I used to picture him here with me. But I cant control these delusions. I know I’m doing this to myself but I can’t control it. He’s always there. I’m always being watched. I always pretend like everything I’m doing is being watched by him. My day is disrupted by these delusions, I can’t do anything. And at night, all I see is him. The whole thing happening again again again. There’s no escape from him. Loving him so much has affected my brain. I’m going crazy but I need help. I want to stop. Forget. And for the past two weeks I’ve taken 6 online anorexia tests and I’ve been tested positive. I haven’t eaten anything since morning, I always make myself throw up. I took six pills yesterday just to feel numb and sleep. I need help. No one cares. Who should I tell that I need help? I don’t want to be like this.
Hey hey, stop, I am here to talk. I have been through something like this, but what you are going through is much more terrible.
Just know that it takes time, you need to hold on. Spend more time with your family, less with your phone or anything. Sleep with your parents, hug them tight. Will definitely help you sleep better and make you feel closer to people that are important
jay @jay12
Hey I’m here for you
