i really dont understand or get people and they hating  ways like honestly my light must be shining so bright. I laugh every-time of my coworker's

it's always them so petty and childish worrying little ol me im just minding my business doing my work and ya steady wondering about what i do in this small room with ya

3am Thoughts

He once said "You're not just sex, you're more than that".... Well, he failed to prove it right

I am a 20 yr old doing my graduation. I have a gf we are in a long distance relationship and i Haven't spoke to her since 2 yrs and i dont even know whether she loves me or not

Relationships

I'm feeling lyk i am lacking behind , reaching no where jst wasting my energies. 
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Anxiety

I realised over the period of this lockdown that my parents are really toxic. Earlier, I never even thought about this thinking, this is how parents generally are. They used to be so restrictive, manipulative, controlling and blaming but then I used to waive it off thinking, they are acting for my betterment and protection only. But recently over the past 4-5 months, it got way too much. And then I went to google and just typed in, traits of a toxic parent and to my surprise, almost 80% of them matched my parents' nature. I was shocked and not yet ready to accept it anyhow, giving myself explanations over and over again while trying to justify their toxic behaviour by saying that they are acting in my best interests. But when I started plunging deep and noticing all their usual behaviours that I used to consider "normal", I got to realise that they are toxic as hell. At first, it was really hard in itself to accept this fact. But when I did, I felt a different kind of peace. Like I have finally accepted it all and am not suffering while trying to change them for the better. Because before coming to face to face with this harsh truth, I always used to try my best to make them see my pov and understand my decisions but they just never did, saying that they are always right. But now, I have dropped this habit of mine. Because I'm not responsible for them or their behaviour/decisions. I am only responsible for mine. And this realisation really helped me in an empowering way. 

Their usual comments/taunts still hurt me but I have chosen to take away the power they used to hold over me and not take any of them personally. I choose to detach from them and act indifferent when they really cross my boundaries while trying to act that everything is fine. 

I'm still fighting this issue. And it really hurts when they choose to ignore me and my feelings while I look at other's parents and compare them to mine. But I know, I will emerge triumphant and stronger from this. 

If you have also gone through such a situation, please comment down below and let me know so that we can connect with each other and develop a safe space for powering through it. 

Emotional Abuse

I recently had to move in my grandparents grimy basement, my abusive mothers parents. I'll be solely responsible for my granny's care soon when the Alzheimer's takes over. Beyond my responsibility to her I'm also financially stuck with no car. I was walking to work for years when I could to save for one but no credit.. I've move over 20 times. I've been homeless and denied assistance. I'm so disgusted with my panic disorder and my body's flaws that I avoid dating and intimacy. I'm so riddled with anxiety I hate to leave the house to the point of crying. When ppl look at me I want to cry. I just want to cry. I'm sick all the time and my body/teeth hurt, there are days I feel like I'm living in a VR headset I'm so disconnected, but I have no insurance. I need to make more money but have no more options. I'm stuck where I am, with no idea what's going to happen to me if/when something happens to my grandparents (they're 80) ... I'm utterly stuck and completely alone. I just don't know what to do. I'm utterly unmotivated. I'm just crushed by a complete feeling of total futility and terror .. what the fuck.... I don't know what to do. 

There is whole world to go but that little boy who is a man now still find his peace in the corner of the room sitting alone.

Affirmations

Anyone wanna have a conversations?

How do u be less empathetic and more heartless? Towards the people who don't deserve ur care? Anyone hv any suggestions?? 

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