I really don't know how I am feeling or what I am doing with my life , I so lost 


Just take things day by day. It'll all work out!

Take some times for yourself alone. Then when you feel better ask yourself what makes you feel low 

Anxiety

I want to murder someone family then want to go jail 

Seriously saying🔪🔪


Disorders

Going to Office 

Acne

im so close to just ending it all
my life is going downhill and i dont know how to stop it

Friends

Last year I was in grade 11 and didn't study properly. So my concepts are not strong. By the end of the year, I joined tuition because I was really not able to do it by myself. I was being taught maths by one teacher and physics/chemistry by another one. My math teacher has been teaching me for the past 2 yrs but I'm taking tuition for phy/chem for the first time.
I took tuition for like 3-4 months in grade 11 and we didn't study the whole syllabus because there was no time left. But still, whatever we studied I was able to grasp the concepts in maths, and in 12th I am very well aware of all the concepts. 
But my new teacher is not that good I guess. If he is teaching me something and that is related to some grade 11 topic and if I ask him that 'I don't recall it' or 'please tell me again, He makes me feel stupid by saying 'how come you don't know this?' 
Where on the other hand, I did not study maths either but still I'm able to understand everything properly, my math teacher clears all my concepts from grade 11.
But idk why I don't ask my phy/chem teacher to explain me properly. I really want him replaced. I know its not entirely his fault but still, I am not able to understand a single thing going on in chemistry. All the money is getting wasted. He charges for 1 hour and somedays if he teaches for an extra half an hour, he even adds that. Who the hell does that?!
Also, can someone tell me what all topics should I learn from grade 11 that are important in order to understand the concepts in 12th?

Books

Im weird these days, i feel sick, i don't want to do anything, i have no energy and i dont want to do anything, i just want to sleep and rest, my parents are working really hard to get me quality education and i realize my responsibilities and my duties, but i cant help but feel pressured, i have very bad anxiety and i have multiple panic attacks and breakdowns in school, i want to cry so much but i cant cry at home cuz i live in an apartment (more like a huge single room ) and i have a roommate who is older(20) than me (14)  im a therapist for her i listen to her about her worries and she loves me a lot but if i cry in front of her shes just gonna worry abt me and feel bad. And bcz of my anxiety i feel so sad and uncomfortable, i feel broken, i try to zone myself out of conversations between my friends bcz i feel scared and want ti cry all the time.... And non if my friends even care to ask me why im so quiet and i feel so lonely....i am a person who constantly needs care and affection and i  hate myself for not being able to receive love and affection that i need......i feel like everyone has that one friend or someone who will be there with them till they grow up and they will have something special and they always have something interesting things to talk about with each other. Even my own bstfrnd seems more happy and interested in other girls' conversation.......im so alone...

3am Thoughts

Hi friends! I am going through a super hard time. My mom is a mental health patient and this is the third time we are having to admit her for rehabilitation in the past 10 yrs. She was doing well for the last 5 yrs but Covid has not been good to her and this happened. I live abroad and all I can do is pray as its hard to travel due to Visa issues. I am feeling emotionally drained and tired, my dad is going through this alone by himself as I am a single child. How do I keep my optimism alive, I am quite spiritual but you can't but wonder when things go wrong time and again, how to keep that faith alive and find that strength to go forward? Any thoughts welcome. It would be great to talk someone.

Family

I cut my own hair 
My mom slap me:
& also look dumass

Failure

Just read a thread of replies on a social medium of different people explaining how hard making (new) friends when you're an adult is. I thought it was just me, now I see other people also find it extremely difficult. What do you think, guys? I guess it's true. Very few people have the time AND the energy to start new friendships. 

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