I once went to AIIMS for a music therapy session with cancer patients where we had to sing for them to make them feel better. It was really a heart wrenching experience. I saw children as young as 4 years being a victim to this deadly disease. 

Physical Health

Im getting anxious aboutnmy first job
I got selected as talent sourcer in probationary period.
Im scared if theyll fire me if i dont end up attracting people. What should i do....im scared

Job Security

Life feels sorted yet somehow feels incomplete there is this restlessness inside 

Confusion

Why do guys dont like shy type of girls???
They are always left unseen :(

Relationships

As a fellow system architect and devops engineer...i feel there are so many bugs and memory leak issue with this app both for Android and iOS...
Idk but developer team needs to upskill 😃🙌

Frustration

how do u know if your depressed? I've been through some shit and i don't know if im depressed or just emotionally (besides the PTSD) tramatized 

Depression

He cheated me when we were together. Not once,not twice many times. I never believed when people said me all these. Till now also I don't know whether it is true or not. People called me dumb then. Now he has left me. Ita been a year to our break up. Every single day of this year has been miserable. I found and realised my faults as well. When I have finally decided to love him all life,with or without his presence I am hearing a lot many other things as well. People are saying that he is talking about me,that he used me and left. He is proud about that. So is it the people,or is it me,or is it he? I didn't I get the love I do. What mistakes did I commit that I have to go through so much?! I want him to know that I am suffering miserably,but I can't speak up. Totally disturbed.

Breakup

Today's probably the first day in over a couple months that I didn't feel like purging after a meal. I've been dealing with a lot of grief and body image issues but I've tried putting myself out there, I've tried showing my vulnerable side to my friends. To my surprise, they've only been nice and cooperative since. My boyfriend has definitely been by my side throughout, to ensure that I reduce my bulimic thoughts to the minimum and it's working wonders! I feel so grateful to have made such progress with such amazing people holding my hand at all times!

Bulimia Nervosa

I just need your opinion on how would you feel or what would you do if you were in my position.

Its a long story but I'll just brief it here. It all started in 2019, we just bought a own house(We are middle class) so buying a house is a big thing. We were doing okay financially. Cut to June, my sister's wedding took place. Everything happened so quick. Dowry still exists in Indian families. My mom believes in astrology stuff so an astrologer told my mom that this is the right guy, you've to get her married to this guy only. So my mom agreed for the dowry even when my dad said no we can't afford it right now, because we've to do the wedding and all other functions along with that the dowry asked is too much and we can't give. But my mom didn't listen to him, she agreed to the dowry. They had to get money from people. After marriage we were in debt! Not a small one. But anyways my dad was still managing to pay those. We were just feeling that we can get through this, but that feeling didn't last long, within 1yr of marriage my sister had a baby, as we are mom side we should take care of the hospital expenses and all. We did that also. This is covid time. 2020. My dad's business got stopped. As he wasn't educated he couldn't do any other jobs and we didn't have capital to start something new. And now my sister and brother in law wanted to shift to own house. For which we had to pay half of the amount as a part of dowry. We were already in so much debt, business got shut, and now this. My dad said no we can't. But my mom again said okay. Again we asked ppl we know for money. Now we've to repay them all and my dad isn't doing anything. From last 20 days he's been ill so he's unable to even talk. I've been doing internships earning 5-10k per month which was going to their expenses. My mom everyday scolds my dad and says things like you won't do anything, you'll just stay at home, I'm tired of this. And some stuff which I can't mention. Listening all this, he just busted out saying I will die, you guys live happily.

Everyday my parents talk about suicide. As their kid, my life and my sister's is totally different. I'm the one who's going through this situation with them from last 2 and half years. I'm 20yrs old. I've not been doing okay mentally. But I was strong just to make my parents strong. There were days where I  had suicidal thoughts, but the thought that it'd cause more pain to them stopped me. 

Financially we're at zero. There are 2 sources from which we have to get money but we aren't getting it. If we get them we can clear all our debts and start a business.

These financial issues has taken a toll over my whole family. 


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