I once disappointed the people around me. 

















And it somehow made me free.

Live up to your expectations don't feel pressured our judged by anyone else. Be yourself is all that you can do

3am Thoughts

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I feel like my Mom's expectation is getting higher and higher and I'm getting anxious because I'm already at my limit...

Anxiety

How does it work guys? 

Addiction

U r not just a bad texter, u also a bad person, u hv bad personality. U asshole. I hate u. I dont know why the fuck i fell for you. All i wanted is forgetting you. I hope we never met so that u cant ruin my life. I bet u dont know whats ur mistake. U underistimate me and everything about me. Whoa i feel so dumb loving u. I won't be able to forget this pain haha. 

Crush

Dill bardasht tha ab udaas he hum aankhe numm he abb wo he yaad hume hum aate yaad nai abb 

Lonely

If god wanna send someone to me whyyy always sent me the toxic one 

This period of my life just made me realise that I am not meant to be happy, I just feel like a machine, doing all the orders, even if I would rize my voice no one can hear me, everybody knows what I want, and pretends not to, they already created my path, towards the futur, they have never been asked to do so, but since they put the plan, no body can change it.
They lie, that is all they do, they are giving me a false hope, telling me I can do this and that, but actually all I can do is following rules, that is how my life was being created. Selfishness and people's opinion are the things which controll me, it is not even me, at some point I just realised this fact. I am not living my life, I am not the only owner of it, my life is not valuable.
They are trying to convince me with some bullshit saying that I am the responsible of my life, in fact they are just bluffing, they are already forcing me to do something I don't wanna do. I hate living like this, I hate my life, I hate my existance, I hate myself and everything surrounding me... I wanna kill myself. Make an end for this whole shit.
Why can't I do the things I wanna do ? Why can't I be happy ? Why should I even live if I am not doing the things that I don't wanna do ?
'People would say he's daughter is a doctor' 'they would say his children went to study in France' ' they would say he is a successful man after having those children'
I said for like a million time that I don't care what people would say, I don't wanna go to France I have my own dreams, can't you just let me do what I want ? Can't you just give me a chance to prove you who I am ? All I want is one chance, first and final, to do what I wanted to do, to decide my own future, to dig my own way. I am sick of you being my programmer, I really can't stand it anymore. 

Depression

Guys help me with this. I have never lived with my parents since I was 5. They shifted to different state, and I stayed with my grandmother.. now for obvious reasons for few months after my graduation planning to stay with my parents. Because  I have some importance thing to work on. But I am scared that I might not feel like home and would want to go back to my grandmother's place. How should I think about it?

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