I need someone to love me. I feel dead and empty. I feel pointless. I need someone to help me. I can’t say anything out loud the way I need to. I feel guilty. I feel physically sick. I feel cold. Everything is dark. I act happy to make everyone happy. If they knew the real me they would be sad. I cant do this. I don’t want to. I want to believe in love and God again but i feel too lost.