

 I need some time to think about myself and what am I doing with my career. I have this sudden thought that when everyone is moving with their lives, I'm doing nothing. Lately, Avoidance has been part of my life. Idk what is going on? 

I'm suffering from same problems then I thought 
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fed up 

I feel the same, i got this huge stress on me because i haven’t decided what I would like to study or which career to take, and everyone else seems so sure about that, it’s really frightening to feel like to be left behind.

Stress

Anyone From Kota ?

Friends

Feeling depressed 😔

Anxiety

a girl knows that I love her so she chose to be a prostitute because she knew that anyhow she will convince me to marry her and we know that in love we bypass the lover's flaws. So, she is living now a lustful life in her young age but she is not talking to me for years because she wants me to become a successful person so that she can marry me. Her entire family, relatives, everyone close to her knows that I love her and she and her friend, society told my parents that I love her. What should I do? Should I leave her for her stupid idea? Is it my fault that if I leave her for her stupid idea after promising to marry her in the church? Even though a male prostitute knows her, she is dating someone else in front of me...I don't have any problem but if someone else (except her) opposes the rules and regulations against me, I take action.
I consulted a psychologists and they told me to walk away from her and move ahead in life. 

Love

Any foreigners to chat with?? All i can get are Indians, not that I'm complaining, just curious 

3am Thoughts

🙄🙄🙄 I'm always confused 

Confusion

Everyday I think I will not react in this weird triggered way with my bf but i do. 
I have so much trauma and anxiety stored in my body it comes out in the least expected way when triggered in the form of lack of communication, connection or not being heard, not being seen - as it has always.. so when my bf /current partner behaves as such.. It triggers me.. Somatically too when I notice sensations in my legs. 

I have been experiencing brain fog and internal shame alot. and with the brain fog and massive anxiety I tend to not connect with people I plan/intend to. Including therapists.. And taking actions which I ought to. 

Things like regular travel and moving and packing.. And meeting new people ot moving on, which are really normal and may come naturally to adults, as a 28 yr old gets very difficult for me. Planning a little trip or to be on the go with remote work.. Is paralyzing me and I am looking for connection, or the fact that I'll be missed and my bf wants to spend time with me before I go and other affirmations. But no getting even that communicate d from him and otherwise feeling a sinking feeling within.. I feel bad and triggered. 

Traveling might be a very normal thing.. Or to work remotely on the go and make decisions.. But then why am I so clueless and scared and anxious while making them. 
I am planning a trip to Bangalore for a while and nearby.. Everyday drawing strength but also accumulating lots of fears, shame and abundant loneliness. 

I tried to talk and have a word with my bf too.. But he seems to not get it and totally overlook it. Maybe it's my need for connection + inner loveliness and also dissociating and not wanting to settle. But also.. His red. flags. 

Why is a normal travel appearing such a big deal and meeting me with so much shame? 

I hope I find the strength and connections and not get so paralyzed in decision making and living..forever in shame and survival mode. I wish to be and I hope I can

Adulting

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Music

I have A LOT of dysphoria rn and i’m so stuck and don’t know what to do. I’m a lesbian but i want to be masc sometimes and my pronouns are they/she. I’m mainly a dom and occasionally a sub. I want to start dating but no one interests me and i can be socially awkward so it makes it hard to find someone. I like one of my friends but sadly she’s dating someone rn and she jumps around with people and i want someone committed to me. Do you think I’m asking to much?



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