Relationships

I need some one to love me 20 or 21 years old 😐

Boyfriend

GAWD DAMN!!! So I got covid a week ago and today is the LAST DAY I had to stay home!! AND GUESS WHAT?!! THOSE BITCHES AT MY SCHOOL HOST A FREAKING CONCERT😫😫😫I’m soooooo jealous rn!!!! I keep seeing my friends putting it on their stories but gawdddddddd!! 

(Totally out of context but I dreamt about my crush this night and we hugged and kissed in it😫❤️But then I woke up)

Jealous

I really dont know how do I reassure myself that I'm completely healthy and fine ! I always feel like I'll die anytime soon . It's been 3 months I'm suffering I'm so absorbed in this anxiety! My chest is tight 24/7 , I feel short of breathe 😭😭!
I have visited so many doctors and have been diagnosed by several blood tests which are completely normal except the ESR a bacterial infection in my body for which I'm on medications and doctors told that there's nothing serious but I'm not able to believe them ! Even rn , I'm feeling like my chest is hurting and I'll have a heart attack 😭😭😭

Anxiety

I am looking for travel buddy, preferably Girl🙂
Anyone interested in traveling in near future?

Travel

*Is anyone here a trichologist* , I want to ask something personal to them related to hair health and it's something I'm really getting depressed and yesterday got a pani attack 
Please someone 

Depression

How to get connected to personal chat? 

3am Thoughts

Life is so unfair. I had a hope that I gets to stay in one relationships. But everything got ended as gave up on me, betrayed, cheated or faked themselves. I don't know why am I the only one who is facing it😂. I can't say It's so exhausted it feels numb these days. For ex. My 1st and 2nd love. 1 was afraid of her parents and 2nd left me bcz of her ex trauma😂. And the other one that girl said we were just friends.And the last one I have been in relationship with. She showed me as someone when she isn't that girl . I got to know that after 7 months and I got exhausted with relationships after that. Why am I always got attracted to wrong ones. Why me god😂

I was alone and i always were 
But i got used to it until you showed up 
But when you came, you made it bright 
However it was your disguise .
I was't wise but knew how to smile
However your seperation made me wise
Since you left, i became strong 
However i made abusive my thoughts
Now i don't even pray for your return 
However i miss my previous version
Who knew how to stay alive 
As all i do now is pray for afterlife 
I always thought my family would back me up 
However they made it even worse 
I wish I could scream only once 
However i was told I am pretending it hurts
Now all i wish is to stay alone 
But my bad, my wishes always go in oblivion.
I wish I could explain it in words 
How i went through alone with all this hurt 
I can't show how i feel everyday 
Being pathetic kills me everyday 
I always tried to be good son 
However i forgot relation needs actions in return
I was declared useless by someone 
Who seeks my whenever in problem 
I tried for years to make someone smile 
However i failed too in her eyes 
I don't know what to aim at now 
I just wanna feel alive.









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