I need a lil help. I want you to suppose this plot and tell me what would you do to break this pattern :when you feeling like there's a constant competition between you and the outer world amd no matter how hard you try things are just not getting in your favor, you lack motivation and want to stay in bed all day, you feel alone inside (its not depression) But every task seems way more hard than it actually is, you have developed a habit of procrastination and this all just feels so heavy, you feel like you are left behind and others are doing way better than you 

FOMO


I have always felt unproductive , unworthy . Mood swings is my daily issue . I have low self esteem. I always don’t have the motivation to boost up myself. I have always  low energy of doing anything. I barely go outside and meet with people. I have few friends . I don’t trust people and they hurt me a lot so I try to stay away from them. But sometimes I feel alone . I want to spend time around positive minded people. In my teenage days, I have experienced breakup in a relationship which left me feel so worthless that I started hating myself. I have overcome the relationship somehow. But I can’t forget this experience as the relationship was with my cousin. So I see him always and it triggers me a lot. My career life is also uncertain. My current relationship is a long distance relationship which is hard to maintain. Most of the time I feel alone and requires attention. But I somehow manage to control my emotions. I am afraid of changes in life. I am afraid of being married . I stay at home and do the same thing every day. I don’t try to get out of my comfort zone. I get sad very frequently and it hampers my day to day life. I always have to work hard to stay happy. When I see other people I feel like I am unable to grow happiness within myself. I have fear of every little thing but I  Want to be confident and be the best version of myself. But I don’t know how to improve myself.

Depression

 so want to yell right now gala faad ke but unable to it’s like I am siniking. Suffocating. Headache on worst level. Eyes are burning. So wanna hit my car to something 

Life's a mess, let's be messier? 

3am Thoughts

Well i should feel ecstatic as i got my first job 2 days back but instead only one thing is gng in my head and that is I don't want to live this life at all. I can't accept the way people are now of my generation, like I can't find any humanity, i just find competition all around to prove to everyone that they are the greatest and can change the world or all are busy grooming themselves but no one cares to go that extra mile for a stranger to help them out. I am stuck in a fast moving generation with a mindset of a 1900s kid. I have so much childishness inside me and i really don't want to lose it just to become another heartless and shrewd person.  

You might think I am feeling very depressed but i just don't want to live this life anymore because I don't want to see my future itself. I am having everything right now, a job, a perfect partner, a great loving family but only  I know what are the hard truths behind all these great things. A great family who loves me but none of them are happy with each other, a great partner who loves me a lot but only I know that I can't share all my feelings with him as i might just make him upset plus I don't want to marry him because after looking at my parents, I just hate marriage.

 I don't know how people even figure out to live their lives in this world happily and i am not able to. If i needed a hug and warmth i was used for satisfying their desires. I don't understand whom to open up about all my stuff without being judged.

 Yes, i just need some hug and someone to hold my hand and just stay there that's all. I know i can figure out all the solutions but i have to always leave everyone at the end because my life changes every year. A new place , a struggle to again make my own presence count and i am tired of doing it over and over again. I want to just stay at a place for once. Is it too much to ask for?

Adulting

To anyone,

Who feels like nothing is going right and feels completely lost. Just know if it feels like bottom, congrats buddy, because this is the end to your fall and now only one direction is left to go "UP"

SO WAKE UP NEXT MORNING ANS SHINE BRIGHTER THAN ANY PROBLEM YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH.

Motivation

I fainted yesterday. I always thought my body is strong enough to not let my mind get to it. But turns out I was wrong.

Physical Health

End it nowwwww

Overwhelming life, overwhelming relationships, overwhelming job, overwhelming part-time course I have no idea how to live my life in the middle of so much going on. I am not able to spend any time with my friends or my family or even my dog because I have so much going on in my life. I feel like ever since 2022 started I have not gotten a single chance to enjoy myself. I haven't even taken a vacation in the last two years. My boss would not leave me alone and whenever I ask for a leave she tells me to work. I have tried to ask them for a remote opportunity for my work but it has been denied. How do I move forward in this overwhelming life? I need my people around me. I need someone who I can tell about my day without feeling so tired that I fall asleep on the phone. I know that my friends are going to be there for me in the click of a second, but I genuinely don't know when to call them over. I don't even have the time to just go on a drive at night in this overwhelming life to empty my mind because the moment I come back home from work I am immediately on the bed passed out within half an hour. Sometimes I even forget to eat my daily meals, and that has resulted in me losing weight, falling sick very often, and having no energy to do anything at all. I have pushed getting my drivers license by for a few months now because I am I just don't have the time.

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