I miss you, a lot. I never thought it would hurt this much i regret now knowing how happy I was when i actually was. I wish i could go back in time and stay there, I was to excited for what was about to come that i forgot to live the moment. I spent to much time thinking about the future and now that Iβm there it isnβt that great actually nothing went the way I planned. I just wish i could wake up to find myself in 2018,2019, 2017β¦ i donβt care. Just not here. Iβm afraid that nothing will happen again, i donβt want to stay like this for years, i donβt want to fear that my best days are long gone.