I miss the old me! I feel like i hv turned into someone i would hate! But i am jus afraid of being alone and getting attached and being abandoned again. So i try to stay out.make plans with different people. Try to stay away from home n family. Smk up n drink to avoid emotions and pain!

Same with me....but i am trying to spend time with me..... Trying to explore me right now

Life

I don't know why I'm feeling so restless I'm just unable to sleep and I'm getting quite anxious these days.

Panic Disorder

I'm too weak to end it all, but I want to, very very badly.

3am Thoughts

Hi everyone
I don't know actually what is happening to me these days. I feel sometime anxious and restless and at that moment I cry actually I don't want to cry but then also cry. In 2012 I was diagnosed with mood disorder since then i am on medication and I am stable but don't now why from 2-3 years I face problem of mood swing sometimes suddenly I feel like to cry and then I am unable to control it. Recently I joined gym to keep myself busy and fit but after my workout everyday I feel restless, anxious and feel to cry and I am unable to control . My doctor said to leave gym but I don't want to leave it actually, I want to fight and solve my problem instead of running away from my problem and I hope I will solve my problem , recently I have started meditation also in order to solve my problem I hope it will work

Stress

I just wanna end this all
It's too much to handle
Can't tolerate more

Being vulnerable to your partner or anyone else, is scary.
The possibilty that they may know too much and then if they want to hurt me someday, it may hurt too much.
Ofcourse, being vulnerable may be beautiful but the 'what ifs' stop me everytime.
I cant share a few things and sometimes it gets so frustrated BUT I dont want anyone to know anything that they may hurt me with. :/

I've never felt worse. I so want to talk to someone and cry out as loud as I can like a lil baby but I'd hate myself if i do that idk why. I just don't know what exactly is bothering me. How I'm so responsible for making my life which is apparently at a turning stage so messsy or that I am a terrible and unsuccessful child to the most amazing parents who'd give their everything to me in a heartbeat or that I make so many promises to myself and break every single one of them putting my future in so much trouble. I hate this feeling so very much. I've let myself down.. and there's no turning back at this point

Anxiety

Im overwhelmed i just want to disappear 

Overthinking

Warning ⚠️- vent
I am lost, tired, don't have any interest in anything, boring and so on, why this happening to me? I got no friends, no one to talk plus an introvert with social anxiety and so and so. The things that used to enjoy I don't want to do them anymore nor do I enjoy. So tired of living like this the time is passing by but I am at the same place where I was years ago or more worse now. Idk what happened, it isn't me, I wasn't like this. I am just broken now. It hurts so much that I ain't got even one friend with whom I can share my feelings, but got tired of the fake people too, why can't I get what I want ? Why is its so dark over here for me? Why it happened to me? When it's gonna be end? Is there any hope? I just want 
runawayyyyyy now
Whhhhhhhhyyyyyyy goooddd why, give me peaceeee, or someone atleast, is it too much to ask for? What I wished in my life, nothing but happiness na, Did I got? no, everything is just shattering me down now, nothing is there, noone is there, why? Why happening to me, what's wrong I did? Take me please now, I can't take up anymore, 

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