Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I miss my school so much, the place I spent 8 hours a day from when I was 3 years old until I turned 15, then I switch to another high school very against my will, a horrible place I hated, days went by slowly, everything was boring and I just felt like I lost 2 years staring at a white wall. I just got into college and I’m still not over my old school, my old small town. When I left I had my group of 5 friends that always had my back, within them my best friend that I’ve known since I was 6 whom I used to fight with every other day but we’d always get back together no matter what. For the longest time, I thought I was lonely and they were the only ones I really had but I slowly started to realize that wasn’t true, everyone had my back, even that one kid who used to constantly make fun of me thinking he was so funny or whatever, he was there for me too. I realized that when I was at my lowest point, so many people I never expected showed me love and support, when I used to cry in a corner cuz I argued with my best friend I was quickly surrounded by my entire class, cheering me up and ready to fight the one that made me cry, I liked that. My last day of school, some people wrote messages on my wall ( a huge piece of paper we all had and every end of the year people could write a message) I never got many, and that one time I didn’t either but two stood out to me, I barely knew them but i felt so understood by the words they wrote me, I hope they’re doing well. I feel like I wasted my time there too, I have so many good memories looking back yet I went through so much unnecessary stuff and that was all my fault, can’t believe i allowed that, can’t believe i didn’t know how good i had it. I also miss my favourite teachers, the ones that treated me like a daughter and looked after me. I wish i could get over it but i really wish this was just a dream, I want to wake up and be back home.