I miss her. I miss her a lot. She cheated on me, I know I should completely forget her. But it's not in my power. I miss her too much. I loved her too much.

It's not worth it man! Been through it, she's not  worth it

My mannnn, don't do this to yourself!!!!!!

it's okay to miss her. but you have to get over her. you deserve better


Relationships

I thought about it now although cannot do sheet about it but just its been a long time since then and also has been heavily laying on me. Something sad happened to her last year on 12th March, and I was there to cheer her up virtually. Obviously, you'll be sad for the next couple of days or even weeks. I texted her at night but she didn't reply and then she replied next day after almost 16 hrs. So I tried talking to her without asking her how she was to not remind her about that thing but she seemed so uninterested, like the vibe seemed so off so I decided not to bother her by texting. I decided to let her have her space. I assumed that she'd get irritated if I keep bugging her about how she was feeling but then everything changed for me to so the distance just kept increasing. Now that I think about it, I did not handle the situation correctly. Even though I liked her a lot and she didn't(most probably) but I should've been there for her, I don't know I acted out of emotions and assumptions and pretty much f'ed even a little chance to get closer to her. So much to say but don't how to say, I am afraid. Mostly she hates me now and doesn't even know if I exist or not

3am Thoughts

Things weren't alright between me and my gf....She broke up a month ago.....we were still in touch....she wanted to get back... I denied every time she asked me so..... I was drunk last night till 5 it's 10 am when I post this, I still am maybe, she called and asked for the same I couldn't hide it up I still do love her but am afraid what if things don't work out again, what if this turns out to be a toxic cycle I don't want to see her cracking up again 
I was just fine without her 
She on the other hand took a huge toll in the past month 
She did everything to get back 
Would it be a right decision to get back? 

Ama Lou - Trust Nobody is literally how I’m feeling. Love her. 

Music

I'm really stressed abt my career & job, and in a relationship since 6months.. My male bestfriend advised me to end it with her.. a month ago.. . Apparently she's been thru a lot all her childhood and situation now isn't any better. I belong from a middle class family and financial conditions in my house are fucked up to. We have an age gap of 4.5yrs & I'm the older one. She really loves me but her expectations abt reassurance, respect and all are really high.. I don't have the courage to break up over call even though I know she loves me a lot, but I can't keep living for her.. Should I just breakup on texts?

Long Distance Relationship

That night, when her text pop up it was late but seeing it i got chills... Like something was on my neck crawling around. I should not be this excited.
Her: hey!
Her: you there?
Her: are you asleep  ?
Her: i guess so...

I read them from notification bar... I'm not ignoring but it’s just i want to talk and at the same moment don't want to talk. Yes i know I'm confused.

All those thoughts are like rollercoaster they are coming back and forth between me and her .

Everything was on hault, i wasn't prepared for let her go cause she was everything I called peace.

I know Those eyes won't make me comfortable now her smile wouldn't make me happy as then. But afterall I wanna try i can't imagine working out of thing without her. She knows how important she is for me. Is making fun out of me ? Or she want just pull legs and letting me go ? What if I'm not as important as she is for me ? What if I don’t hold the same place as she do in my heart?...
I know this all makes no sense and all this was like another shit about taking things as it appears. _overthinking_ i guess and I know it is a Problem with me still I can't let her go I can't lose “US”

She was an addiction. And when I am with her there was no escape , but it's not dark just looming shadows as far as I could see , I just don't want to admit that she's taken over my life..

People changes. Feeling changes.
It simply means that sometimes when people grow , they grow apart.
But it doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real
you flinch everytime i try to reason over how i was in love with you, nearly as if you have never heard of a lie, almost blasphemous in its nature, as big as this one before.

you laugh at my face with tears right at the corner of your eye, trying gloriously hard to command some control over it and keep yourself from breaking down in front of me, failing miserably at an attempt to hide it all away.

it hurts me to see you holding pain in your heart, so much of it that the only way for it to come out of you is in forms almost physical and yet, all i want you to believe is in the fact that love once shared stays love forever, even when the people no longer belong to each other.

i want to whisper silent prayers and take the pain away, and fill you with the assurity of how love never ends and stays true to its existence once its born, and holding on to that, hurts way less than holding on to something which no longer exists.

you flinch everytime i try and tell you how a part of me would always love you with all it's entirety, everytime i wish there comes a point where we look at each other and remember the magnificent love that we nurtured together.

i wish i could tell you how people fall in love and sometimes fall apart, and yet the love once shared, is always going to be love, as eternal as it is.

but most of all, i wish i could somehow make you love that part of me, and not hate the whole of me.

After being cheated on a couple of years back, all of a sudden you kinda like this new girl whom you've never met. But the, on the first talk, she says' "I am not interested in relationships" without me even proposing or anything. I just said lets be friends and get to know each other. Kinda feeling scared as to if all the effort and sacrifices that I will put will go for a waste at the end of all this and end up being alone. I'm not sure if i've explained this correctly though im not able to think straight. Any advices?

One Sided Love

I feel horrible currently.. 
I'm into toxic relationship.. I think I have lost my peace.  So I n my girlfriend keep fighting now n then.  It has become daily routine now.  Everyday block n unblock.  I know she's toxic to me.   But I cannot help myself. I feel like talking to her n forget everything.. sometimes I feel.. it's okay to be suffering daily. But I would be with her.  We fought 2 days back.. n she has blocked me everywhere.... I don't know what to do! I guess I need some advice or someone to talk to..  

Lonely

Im having a hard time rn bcs just broke up 2 months ago. She's still around but she been seeing another guy recently. She told me that still love me but things getting complicated. I really hope someone can talk to me right now :'))

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