Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

i may not be able to say this to you in person because im scared of losing you. i lost all my self-esteem, ego, attitude, confidence, and my wishes just because i was afraid of losing you. i never wanted to make a count of things but now that im alone all i can think about is what less did i do? i guess i was never in the line of people you would come for i don’t know what changed you, i don’t know what changed between us but we’re were never like this. i remember from the times when i used to persuade you when you were angry with me and you used to persuade me when i was angry. I’ve been scared since the last time when you decided to end our friendship,i cried, alot. and then when you called and i saw the little hope that could save us, made me happy. i decided from then, i would never let us fight again, but i failed. despite whatever i do, I’ll always be the wrong girl in story, and i guess people have replaced me and you’re happy with them. so, I’ll try to wish you to be happy with them. im sorry that i hurt you intentionally or unintentionally. maybe i shouldn’t have hid all that i felt bad in the fear of losing you, maybe i shouldn’t have cried behind your back, and maybe i should’ve have told you like all others do that could’ve maybe saved me being the bad one in the story. i know ive made a lot of mistakes maybe a 100 of them but i always thought you were there to correct me, you would accept me despite my flaws like nobody else did. but it’s okay maybe i overdid, over thought things and over burdened you with a lot. so im really sorry for being such an irritating human in your life.