I m just disturbed, I’ve lost mu focus on my ambitions, my dreams or may be i m demotivated, diverted i don’t know what the f is going on

I m not confused it’s just that I resigned from my job for higher education and my entrance exams are not all going as expected I want to get in tier1 college but i m not able to do that i m qualified for tier2 college but tier1 i can see losing them from my hand so I don’t feel like studying like you know how i am feeling

Happens all the time...especially since we are all trying to get back on track during the pandemic. Nowadays I try walking 20mins as soon as i wake up since it makes me feel more focused. Still struggling to sit and prepare for long stretches of time  but we all gotta start somewhere...just know that you are not the only one feeling this way. Take time to sit and regroup all your thoughts so that you can regain your focus...hope this helps😊

Happens to everyone no need to worry. Think about this for a second- what would clarity be without confusion? 
Exaclty. Embrace this process where you are confused of how things might be going in your life! I know it’s just a phase but pick yourself up. Start moving ahead! Create a vision board can be the first step towards this journey!

Mood Disorder

Hiee!!! Back after so long. 
Anyone is upto share something, they can to me😉

Friends

Isang gabing kaylamig

College

Even after doing a lot of gym my suicidal intention is still in my mind....
I am sooooo lonely and failed that I just can find a solution to get out...
All the time I feel just die or get dissapear 
There is no happiness left for me in this world 

Depression

Khaaq ki teh mai padne k lie jeetay hai,
Ajeeb log hai marne ke lie jeetay hai.....


3am Thoughts

I often feel so insecure around my friend who judges people a lot and makes negative comments on them without even knowing them properly. I feel like i am a dumb person and she's a way smarter than me and then i feel like i am someone who's very clingy, cringe, and dumb whom ppl don't really respect but talks nicely out of kindness. She's a very private kinda person, she considers me her best friend but doesn't share a lot with me , like she is being in a RS with a guy for more than 2 years but she always told me that she hates RS, she would never dare to go against her strict parents, and etc etc and would even elaborate more which turns out to be completely fake and made-up, to justify this she told me that she feared i would judge her cause i am not into this RS stuff but still i didn't judge thought she might be honest that i could judge her and stop staying in touch with her. Most of the time whenever I say something she doesn't respond very well, and most of the time completely goes silent which makes me feel so dumb as if i don't matter. She isn't really a sweet or nice person by behaviour and i am very sweet and nice kinda person when it comes to friendships. I am very clingy with my close friends. Due to which i keep feeling insecure. I often feel like an urge to always be around her, like i wont have any much fun if i am away from her. And whenever I have fun with my other friends i feel like she would judge me and make fun of me as she does with other PPL. Somewhere i feel like she's kinda egoistic and often tries to dominate by her behaviour where she pretends she's very smart and doesnt care whether her friends stay with her or not. I always have to behave in a certain way which wouldn't make her judge me in front of her. I just don't know how to deal with my overthinking and insecurity, i can't break my friendship with her, i feel like i would be overthinking or overreacting but at the same time i also feel insecure and not so positive around her. I don't wanna break my friendship for any silly reason or because of my own insecurities.plesde givme your honest opinion regarding this.








Unpopular Opinion: 

Women don’t want to friendzone guys. 

They’re genuinely searching for a masculine man who can ravish her and make her feel her feminine energy. 

But. To be attracted to you, a woman needs to respect you BEFORE she can like you. 

Nice guys aren't respected.

Relationships

I don’t like the way people always play with my feelings. They see everything like a joke, but for me it’s not. I have being in pain almost my whole life. I feel like I don’t deserve to be loved every person that I get in love with always play with my feelings. One time I have this guy I was really happy with him I even get in love with him. Almost all the time I was with him one time something was weird he change the way he talk to me he become dry so I knew something was wrong. In my culture when a men change like that is because he has someone else. So I decided to end our thing there And I tell him why… We spend like 1 week without talk and then he text me and everything go back to normal. So after one week of see each other again and he tell me that he don’t want to be with me anymore because he is talking to someone and he want something real with the person. I was like ok because I understand if someone don’t want to be with me anymore. Two weeks passed and he tell me that want so see me again to tell me something. (I was so happy I was like he realized that he don’t like her and he love and want to get back with me) So I went to his house happy and shit and I ask him what you want to talk about? So he said, Well I have another girl pregnant. I was in shock my mind was processing everything and my body was relax but not in a good way. In the moment I feel my soul living my body. I was why you make come to tell me that. I event wasn’t able to talk. Still thinking about the moment my heart hurts. 

Breakup

I am feeling not well
My mom pass away last 2 months before me feeling alone without mom I cry every day night can't holding my emotions
Actually I am gay that's why all people's using me and hurting me
No one can understand my emotions and my feelings just use for me xxx and for mony blackmailing..

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