I m going through bad days a very hard to deal continuously facing rejection things are not working. I give my best but end with tear in eyes. Losing hope

The best part about all of this is its temporary

You never know when you'll get your big break so keep trying. One day at a time. Don't compare yourself to anyone, everyone has a different journey.

3am Thoughts

The more introspection you do, the more you learn from context, insight, and perspective.

You cannot reframe your thinking if you do not first take time to pause, reflect, and observe.

Personal Win

Anxiety and feeling low is a slow poison which ruins a person for a long run.

Anger Issues

You ever been fucked over so bad your skin and hair literally starts getting whiter from the trauma?

Alcohol

Hii 
Hope you all are doing well!

So I have always been an introvert and it is really hard for me to make friends. I joined law school and in my first year, a doctor asked me question whether I can make friends here or not. Since it was my first year I had few friends but eventually the number decreased and I was just left with one friend. I thought she is an amazing person and the one who understand me but covid happened and we shifted back to our homes. Initially, we use to talk a lot only because it was me who was putting time. Later I got a little busy with family and didn't get time to talk to her and she never replied to me back the only day she called me when she broke up with her boyfriend and she was feeling low. After few months she found a new guy on tinder and then again she stopped talking to me. Currently, the condition is I don't have any friend at University people just text me for some work. Even my friend just text me for some work or if she needs any urgent help she will call and within a few minutes she hung up call giving stupid reason which she used to give people in front of me in University. She thinks I am just stupid. 
Whenever I needed a friend to share up things she just never talked to me she gives lame excuses that she is busy. I am sharing today because last night she called me telling me how exhausted she was by work given by the university in that conversation too she didn't allow me to speak once and last she said few things related to me which brought down my moral and willingness to do anything and she said I am stupid and she is overachiever than me. Every time she makes me feel like I haven't achieved anything. I already have a lot of problems and seeing that your friend is behaving like this is disheartening. I am still overthinking these things. 
If you reading this and came till last - Thank You So Much <3. 
I do understand this problem is not as big as the current Covid conditions. 
Do take very well care of yourself and your family.


I'm here to make virtual friends. Will you be???


Intro

My family rejected a guy for marriage as he is not having any background and he is a self made person and very good character, caring in nature

Marriage

The right  attention from a wrong individual  during a lonely time can fool you into believing that they might be the one. 

I just don't know if this site will be the right place for me to share this. In the outside, people know me as relax, cheerful, and positive person. I never share my problem to my friends and my family. I keep that shit for myself. And now I feel so sad. I can't handle it. I just really sad until I feel like I can't cry again. My life never be the same after I graduated from college. Adult life is so cruel to be honest. And now. Because of corona, my mom lost her job. My dad was died for a long time ago, and now my mom lost her job. It makes me sad because I recently having job this year after 10 months being unemployment after graduated. Although the salary is not really great, but for the first time, i love it so much because it was my dream. And after this situation happen to us, all my mindset about dream job is gone. Although I have a sister who have a great job and salary, but I know we will struggling next year due to this. Because she must pay bills for her new car and she is currently studying her master degree.

Am I greedy of being sad because my mom losing her job? I just think life is not fair for me. I just want to having fun with my salary, but now I will use some for my family. And I don't know what will happened if my sister suddenly get married.. All I think is find a new job with a good salary but it doesn't easy. 

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