I m Alone. Main Happy Rehna Chata huu ise Time pe . Main baar baar kyu Sad Ho jata hu ..Pata nhi main thoda jyda he sensitive hu . mujhe baat krni hai kisi se jo mujhe samjhe aoor main uski baate feel krna chata hu..main ekk loyal aoor mere jese soft heart 💖 wala chaaye jese main sab chiz kehh sakhuu ..

Opposites attract bro, in real you need someone who is completely different from you

Dheerajaryan 

Gratitude

Guys please note this nobody in this fcking world is PERFECT. Just don't make yourself feel low that I'm not that good enough... cause tbh you're the best and you're beautiful the way you are. Just be who you are ,what others say dosen't matter "log to kuch kahenge logo ka kaam hai kehna " remember this too.
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Self Love

He say move on karo... keep ur mind distracted so u will not remember me... agr koi move on karna hi nahi chata ho ... agar koi kisi ko bhula hi nahi sakta ho tou .. agr kisi ki raat aur din aik hi shaks ki yado mai pr shuru aur khtm hoti ho tou..  

Love

Mai kafi dino se depression mei tha. Kisi se baat nhi krta tha bilkul chup chap rhata tha. To mere parents kaha ki iska ilaj kisi psychiatrist se krwate hai.. To unhone fir mera ilaj kisi psychiatrist krwana shuru kiya.... Or aaj mai or mera psychiatrist dono depression mei haii.... 🥺

3am Thoughts

Mere relatives bht bure hai unone phle bhi mere papa se emotional hokr befkuf bna kr ek shop leli unse ab dusri lena chahte hai m single girl child hu mere ppa meri sunte nhi vo relatives bht chlak h ek din hmara sb kuch brbad krdege m tenshn se so nhi pati hu Kafi had tak life destroy krdi unone Hmari kitni bar pse b liye … kuki mere papa ko bola Apki girl child h future m kya kregi Apki .. or sab lelia ab b lena chahte h Smj ni ara Kse Roku .. papa meri nhi sunre ye log oversmart hai .. kya koii solution h

I just wanna say these lines to her ki how she is one of the most important person in my life:
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Meri jaan tere wich basdi 
Jind kdle khid khid hsdi 
Ruk khid jandi h hske tera muh tera muh 
Mere chlde ne jo saah Inna di ek wjh bs tu bs tu 
Ye lines kitni baar soacha hai usko bolne k liye bs kbhi bol hi ni pata bs ek drr lga rhta agr usko pane k chkr mai kho diya toh nd i don't want her to leave me in any cost 

zindagi me ese bhi log ayenge 
jo kuch waqt me hi hamre bht kareeb ho jayenge ...
hm badal lenge khud ko unke khatir ..
or phir vo achanak se badal jayenge ....
  shuruvat me to sab thik rahegaa pr.... 
at the end sab apna roop dikha hi jayenge... 
kl tak jo ajnabi hua karta tha 
wo apna hokar 
phir anjaan ho jayega...
yeh zindagi bhi to esi hi  hua karti hai ....
khud ke pass kam aure pass 
zayada raha karti hai ...

Growing Up

I haven't shared this with anyone but I got a dream which I remember vividly. 
The first one was a while ago.
Mummy aur mera bhai mujhe boht pareshan kar rahe the as usual jaise wo abhi kar rahe hain. Dono mujhe kabhi nahi samajhte hain. Ek team hoke agar mujhe thoda sa bhi gussa aata hai apne me aisi baatein karte hain jo mujhe zyada hurt karti hain. Mujhme anger issues hain, ik, par jab sab khatam hoke main rone lag jaati hu wo log aisi baaten karte hain ki ye to hai hi aisi pagal, humesha aise hi karti hai, mujhe to uski chinta hoti hai, kya karegi ye, nakhre hain bas iske. Wagerah wagerah. I can't stand them anymore. And this is the exact feeling jo mujhe sapne me dikhi, I was literally crying after getting up. Koi agar mentally weak feel kar raha hai, aur aapke jaise nahi sochta to kya aisa behaviour karna jisse wo aur toot jaaye, ye valid hai kya? Kab tak apne andar rakhu sab? Main pagal ho jaaungi aise. Ya to main sabse baat band kardu tabhi shayad main theek reh paaungi kyuki ye log including papa, ye log mujhe kabhi samajh nahi paayenge aur humesha negative hi bolenge mujhe. Weak pad jaati hu ye sochke ki ye hain to meri family aur intention aisi nahi hai par karte to wahi hain na wo log end me jisse meri haalat aur bigadte jaa rahi hai. Ek aur dream tha, jo 3 din pehle aaya tha. Main apne bachpan ke ghar me thi, bahar aangan me and what I see is mere papa mujhe kuchh to aakh me laga rahe hain with the intention of fighting and punishing. Mere mummy aur bhai bhi wahi hain. Main ro rahi hu par wo log fir bhi aise kar rahe hain. Side me meri ek friend aur uski family khadi hai, main ro rahi hu ki papa mummy wo log dekh rahe hain aise mat karo, main kaise mu dikhaungi unko, apan aur jhagda nahi karte par papa still wese kar rahe hain aur meri friend aur uski family has rahi hai mujhpe. Papa mere aakh me dale jaa rahe hain kuchh aur mummy kuchh bhi nahi kar rahi hai mujhe bachane ke liye helpless khadi hai, unko rok bhi nahi rahi hai. Itna bura aur bhayanak sapna tha ki mujhe sote sote rona aa gaya. I woke up in the middle of night crying like anything sat on the bed, cried for a long time. My father and mother who were asleep beside me didn't even care to see or maybe they were too asleep aur honestly, agar main unko jagati to wo log sach me mujhe aisehi bolte agle din ki main pagal hu ya fir papa to 100 percent ye baat kabhi jhagda jeetne me laate mujhe hurt karne ke liye. Isiliye maine kisi ko nahi bataya, koi samajh to pata nahi to kyu batana. 
Dono sapne the par feelings boht sach thi. Ye bata rahi hu taaki aap koi bhi ho atleast ek visualised tarike se samajh sako ki main kis mental state me hu abhi. Mujhe help chahiye professionally ya nahi ye main nahi jaanti. Bas sab hote huye bhi akele lagta hai aur dinbhar rona aata hai kyuki mujhe koi nahi samajhta aur mere saath koi nahi hai.
Also, tell me how to feel better about myself, I really really need it. Thankyou 

Mental Health

Esaaa huaaa kisi k saath friends sath bhi h nhi bhi h.. Or personal attachment nhi bs group m bethna gossip that's it. Yarr why they don't match with my vibe 🥴. I need bestie there but...... Even after 4 months i didn't get right girl there for me. 

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