I love my family. I'm very fond of them. I'm a good child, but I feel like I don't have enough freedom, to go out at night, or even till 7 pm, to hangout with friends, have sleepovers, etc. 

Same. But my situation is getting better with time. It's honestly a dynamic situation where there has to be work from you and your parents. You have to understand them too.

Relationships

I hate me!!!!!!ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!

3am Thoughts

I’m feeling like crap 

I want to just talk to you to free my mind. I have a bf from past 3 yrs and he constantly asks me to loose my weight as I am overweight. He is mostly rude while talking on this topic. He even asks me to quit my studies and spend minimum 3 hours in workouts and strict diet. 

Anxiety

I guess i havent the best lately...I dont know why... and how i fell back into this sadness that I escaped from before... Instead i feel more lost than before.. more confused..cyz this time I DONT KNOW the cause of this feeling and I dont even know what km feeling and why im feeling like this... Its juz confusion on top of confusion...you see I would love to talk to my friends about this hut i dknt know why is it so hard to open up ... I used to be so happy and open hut recently ive been... More of the person giving advice than being the person asking for help... I dont know .... I think it might be related to the past where my best primary friends have either left me or juz forgotten my existence... I know its normal to like lose friendships but I lost ALL of my best primary friends... now in high school I feel like everybodys gonna do the same... I really juz dont know... 

Frustration

I feel like a fraud. I'm 17 (mbti: infp) and have been struggling with hebephile attractions for the past 2 years. It's been eating me up inside and I hate myself for it. I don't have anyone to talk to about it and it makes me feel sick of myself. Everyone who knows me sees me as a genuine and caring person ( which I really am ) but I feel like I was cursed with this dark side that I have to hide and struggle with and it hurts so much because I just want to be a normal honest person without any dark secrets. 

I predominantly like women around my age and older but this recent attraction towards younger preteens/teens is something i'm ashamed of and don't know how to deal or come to terms with by myself. I found out about this site after googling for a place where I could let it off my chest without judgement after realizing I need to talk to someone and seek advice. I want to make it extremely clear that I don't ever plan nor ever want to become like those creepy old dudes who harm, harass, and abuse girls. I love care about them too much and I'm just not that kind of guy and don't ever want nor plan to be. This has caused me inner turmoil, questioning societal norms and I feel very lost on what's okay and what's normal or not normal and if this makes me a evil person or not. This side of me has also led me to learn about the harmful things in the world related to it and Hollywood elites due to the attraction/preying on younger women from older men and I can't stop thinking about it and feeling like an evil person. I apologize if this is triggering but I just want positive advice on how to deal with my situation. Why was this demon placed upon me? Why must I suffer this burden? Why me?

 I love people and am a very sound, honest, confident, goal oriented, positive guy who's extremely empathetic and sensitive. I'm pretty child like and silly at heart as most infps' are but i'm not sure if this is the reason why i'm even dealing with this in the first place. What should I do? I beg of you to please refrain from judging me harshly because i'm extremely aware of how wrong this is and how society views people like me with this attraction. That's the exact reason why i'm seeking help instead of letting it get out of control. I feel like this will be the downfall of me in the future when i'm older if I don't confront this now and could ruin future relationships and/or get me into a lot of trouble or even locked up.

Sorry for the long explanation but I had to get this off my chest. Also, I have a mutual crush on this girl at school that I like but I don't feel comfortable pursuing it anymore at the moment until I get this side of me under control during this summer break and figure out what's wrong with me. That's an example of how much this is damaging my mental well being / future relationships. 

If you read this far, I appreciate you for listening. It means the world to me as this was extremely difficult for me to write. I've never told anyone about this and i'm scared to call hotlines due to the many stories i've heard of people having the cops called on them for seeking help. What should I do? What do you think of me? Am I a bad person? Will this attraction towards preteens/teens go away with time? Will it get worse for me as I age? Will I have to deal with this dark side for the rest of my life? Will I become obsessed with younger women in general when i'm 30 or 40? Is this a permanent thing? It's gotten to the point where i've contemplated committing suicide when i'm older because I fear there's a chance it'll become too much for me to handle. I'm scared and don't know what to do or how to feel about this. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you again for hearing me out 🙂.

Hey let's talk about random things I really miss long conversation and hate some cliche like how's your day or name I love to talk about ideas thinking and there thoughts motives and plenty of things which I love to know let's talk simple and make it clear that things don't get bored let's talk like humans one to another 

Mental Wellbeing

I have been friend with a guy since 3 years. We were very good friends untill last month when we were drinking and having fun. 
He was sad so we went to our garden. He was crying so I hugged him, he hugged me back. He was almost going to kiss me near my ears and I didn't feel comfortable so I backed down. I thought I must be mistaken so hugged him back, at that point I could feel he had a boner and he was pressing it against me. I got super uncomfortable and confused so I stopped hugging him and went back with everybody. This all had happened in a duration of 45 seconds. I didn't know what should I do. I couldn't process if it has really happened or not. After 10-15 minutes he asked me to sit with him in the room and I could not say NO, he locked the door. I was scared and confused and in shock. I didn't know what to do. But in the room he didn't do anything, we talked. But I was not in a state that I could think anything else. All my friends and my boyfriend was in the drawing room, they all came in the romm where me and that friend was sitting. Then we all slept.
I didn't tell this to anyone till 2 weeks then I told my boyfriend, he got angry and had a fight with that guy, which I never wanted. I just wanted to tell that guy that what he did was wrong. Now things hav got complicated. I feel I have ruined all my friendship. I think I should not have told this to anyone.
Nothing can go back to the way it was.

Harassment

Digging out her flaws, I completely ignored the best part of her and how she made me feel.
We slowly build up the relationship and then with such stupidity we ruin it as well.

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