I love him. I love him so much. But I have the feeling as if it’s one sided.. or I’m just overthinking. 

That’s the problem. He knows it, he says he does. But since we aren’t actually in a relationship and we’re long distance, it’s hard. I mean like.. he leaves me on read for hours or on seen, I just don’t feel it’s real.. I just hope one day we can meet and maybe try talking about our feelings for real 

Thanks for the advice but it’s not that easy.. let me explain the whole situation. I met him through text, he’s a nice guy but he speaks Spanish. And I don’t. So since I really liked talking to him I decided to use google translate you know and I still do. He’s really caring and all, but since we’re in a long distance friendship, yet both know we love each other and don’t want to ruin it, we decided to wait until we meet to maybe try something. So of course I still love him and somehow am “loyal” to him even if we’re not together, but I have a big problem with overthinking. So whenever I get jealous or start overthinking, I try talking to him since I know communication is important but I can’t get myself to believe he won’t fall in love with someone else or ditch me. I feel as if I’m just a little distraction to him and it hurts. So yeah, we also need to wait for about 1-2 years before finally being able to meet. 

Thank you, that means a lot! <3 You’re amazing

Yep. He lives more than 10,000km away. And he’s trying to save money first :) I don’t want to come in between his projects either, but he promised one day he’ll come surprise me^^

Video call is possible, and we already did but I usually just try not to stare at him because I’m obsessed with him so much! Or he’s just trying to embarrass me by talking to me in Spanish haha

Do you want me to talk more about myself? ^^ 

One Sided Love

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College

Just a sad feeling, slightly dissociative. Need a routine. 

I feel kinda idiot for always thinking about my memories with certain people who don't even reply to texts. They say that they would always be there for u and meet u but they don't even reply for days and sometimes even after seeing the msg they don't reply. I regret for believing in words even if their action are far from what they have said. And still I'm waiting for their reply... Don't u think I'm an idiot???

Frustration

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Books

Can I vent

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Nnhbb 

ADHD

if i knew the last time i hugged him i would have hugged him so tight and kissed him for hours

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