I lost my job due to recession and I lost an opportunity in my career in July. Feeling hopeless. Didn't tell my family that I lost my job. Don't know what to do next??

Completed BE in EEE
I have 3 years of experience.
2 years as a Technical Coordinator
8 months as Production and Delivery Associate.
3 months as Outreach specialist in SEO link building.

Career

My parents are from u.p. and living in rajasthan from many years so I born and did schooling and college here. My bf is marwari.he has huge family like this is my grandfather's brother's son.and many other type of relations.in our family we don't talk to these relatives.and these marwari people just dont want to understand other cultures and even don't admit their own flaws.when my bf told his family about me and that my parents are from u.p. his family said that u.p. people are so cunning.his father already asked me via his sister that am i really want to marry him or just playing.I mean.. with my experience these marwari are more cunning. Sometimes i think that if i marry him will i be ever can adjust in them.

Relationships

I get frequent jaw stiffness and pain, and lil bit of anxiety and stress make it worse… have you guys ever experienced this ??

Anxiety

what do you find most attractive on a girl and her appearance is it always important? 

Now&Me Thinks

Its time to grow. Leave behind insecurities, doubts, fears, attachments, suffocation, frustration. Just accepting and enjoying every moment good or bad with curiosity. If good happening, enjoy. If bad, try to make better in positive way rather than more spoiling it and reacting. Still, let the dark side have no impact on you. It wont until you are connected to urself, u love urself, u have busy routine, valuable time, and loved ones with u. 

Caregiver

someone tell me something?maybe anything funny?

Other

Shayari ❤️


mene waqt ko is kadar badalte dekha hai 
meri jeb kya khaali hui,  mene ishq ko mukarte dekha hai 
ek din fir unse muhabbat ka izhaar karwaunga tum dekhna
fir vo bhi dekhega jis waqt ko mene khud par guzarte dekha hai.

Poetry

Feeling neutral.. It's gloomy and cloudy day.. Dull🌥 
I'm lazy af.. Like everyday 😕

Acne

Mujhe nhi raha jaa skta ghar mai. I really don't know Mai apni aage ki zindagi kaise nikalunga, sch Mai. 

Esa nhi hai mere ghar waale khrb log hai. Lekin bass hum log, aur shyd specifically Mai kisi se match nhi krta. Values, beliefs, anything. Mujhe bht bura lgta hai because they are my own people. My family. But unfortunately kuch bhi thk nhi hai. Na Mai dhang se baat krta hun, na woh smjhne ki koshish krte hai. 
Unki nazar mai, mai ek bht galat ya kh lo unke khilaaf wala insaan hun. Just because we have different personalities. Mera pura parivaar bht hi Outgoing, aur mel milaap wala hai. Mai nhi hun yaar. nhi hota mujhse. Toh kya m galat hun? Firr kyu ut patang bolte mujhe? Firr kyu thk krne ki koshish krte rhte? 
Agar m zyada khush rhta hun, apni safe m, apne ghar m, toh kyu mere upar kuch bhi bol diya jata? Mai esa waisa falna thimka. Bura lgta h yaar bht bura. Honestly bass m apne aap k saath bht connected hun, isliye itna strongly khada rhta hun. Wrna idk. 

For them, I don't talk to anyone, nor to them. I'm dumb. Foolish. Kabhi kabhi lgta hai unka mann chale toh mujhe peet bhi denge. Mujhse nhi raha jaata Esa. And there'd not a single person in my whole relatives or family jisko m yeh bol bhi skta. Koi nhi smjhta yaar mujhe. Harr kisi ki nazar mai I'm dumb. Selfish. Ekal Sulda (someone who prefer to stay alone, oftenly use for negative means) 
Yaar kya apni khud ki choice lena itna galat hai? 

Mai ek shabd nhi bolta hun ghar pr. Still these people curse me. Ki Mai kaisa ho gya. Kitna khrb insaan hun. 

Aur above that I dont like my sister and her husband. Mtlb unse baat na kro, toh ghar waale, Jiju se baat kiya kr, falana thimka. Arre nhi krni baat. Aur abhi when she's coming here, woh toh aur ut patang bolegi. Mai khrb hun. Bura hun. Selfish hun. Shyd duniya ka sbse galat insaan jo ho skta hai woh mai hun. And That's not reality yaar. That's not. 

Ek toh itni problems aur upar se ghar waalo ka harr cheez m itna influence aur comments. Nhi saha jaata. Mai shyd kbhi unka Best Ladka nhi ban skta. Aur I'm okay with that. Sach batau toh when people write na ki Family, is everything. Parents are everything. Etc etc. Bht bura lgta hai yaar ki mere parents ko toh mujhse farq nhi pdta, unhe farq pdta hai unki image se. They never say ki esa kra kr Qki ki isliye shi rhega. Nahii. Instead they say ki Esa kiya kr, wrna log kahenge ki falane ka ladke ko yeh bhi nhi aata. 

Pta nahi aahe kaise samay bitega

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