I lost my grandfather to hear attack last year and I miss him alot and I can't get over his death. I sometimes randomly see visuals of his dead body and funeral I can't get over his death and it's more than a year now and it's really affecting my everything functioning. I sometimes dream about him. Should I go for therapy or is there anyone who lost their dear one and can help me to move on or somebody who wants to connect with me with the same.

Hey thankyou so much. Have you gone through the same?

He was my go to person so yeah I kinda miss him alot

Dreams

:( i m 13 but a guy called me aunty i m feeling super sad..
Can someone help me out:(

Insecurity

Feeling confused , strange , my father is having fever from 5 days its a not happy state for me but i am trying to be suttle, to be positive as much i can still there is tension in my mind for him that when will he will recover and our life will become normal again ... need to be strong in this time for my father for myself .. i am trying my best but need someone to whom i can talk 
I am feeling for crying and crying

How funny my father cried on my 13 th birthday bcoz I wanted to died but by my 19 th birthday he decided to tell me to jump of the building. I wanted to scream at him when said tat but all that came out was tears. Bcoz I knew anything I spoke at tat time could hurt him but this is the last time I’m going to think about other feelings I don’t want to earn any favours anymore 

Y didn’t I commit sucide after 10 th grade in 9 th grade I told myself endure it and end it , I wish I kept my word
In 12 th again I thought I’ll commit sucide but then again I failed
After my 1 st yr exam I’ll die I said but this time I tired but my body rejected it


Y do I remember everything so clearly 


It’s funny 

3am Thoughts

I just miss my aunt so much I wish I would have never troubled her so much I really miss her it hurts to know I couldn't do anything for her I just can't explain how much I miss her 

Today I came to know that my grandfather is no more! He passed away 3 days before. I had my last talk to him over phone call on 25th October. I could have never imagined that he would leave me 5 days after the conversation.
In my last conversation, I couldn't talk properly to him as I was in rush because I was preparing documents for my higher studies. Today I am feeling guilty for doing that, you never know when you will have that final chat with your loved ones. Please talk to them before you get this sad news like me and tell them that I love you.
Don't be like me, I was lost in the rush of this life.

You will always live in my heart Dear Baba!

Frustration

I am cold, can you hear? 
I will fly with no hope, no fear
And the ground, taunts my wings... 

Music

My brother told me he was helpless last week.  Today, he attempted suicide.  I told him yesterday, "You are loved.  Those dummies at school have nothing on you, Atlas!"

Worst of all, he's my twin.  How the frick do you tell your twin brother that you love him if he doesn't believe it?  
He's in the hospital.  He overdosed.  I sang Brother by MCR to him and held his hand.  He's in a coma right now and I want him to be okay.

My little sister, she can't stop crying.  My big brother, he hasn't said a word.  My mom drank in the morning, which she never does.  

I need reassurance.  What happens if he dies?  What happens if I have to say goodbye for the last time?  What happens if half of me just disappears?

(The tag isn't right, it's the only one I could do.)

Self Love

My dads not who I thought he was and now, it feels like he died but he didn’t. It’s like the idea of who I thought he was died and I have seen the true him. This has been the hardest week of my life. I’m lost in my opinions of what to do. Every time I think about all the stuff that has happened I feel a hole in my chest from what used to be happiness. If anyone ever reads this ig just tell me if I should go to therapy. I think I should but it’s hard rn to express the way that I feel 😕

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