İ lost all the hope i had and i think there won’t be any better days!! What can i do?

They saying I don’t have access to the feature yet

Depression

This is something I wanna tell my EX if I ever got a chance and If she's ready to accept to even listen 
Hey girl ! 
What wrong did I ever do in life to be treated this way ? 
I never asked anything from u nor I ever treated u with disrespect 
I always loved u even when u hated me 
When u were pissed at me I found new ways to love u 
Since u like flowers , everytime we meet I started greeting u with flowers 
A smallest of wound equivalent to a tip of the pencil would kill me but me bleeding with a broken arm didn't even make u show some empathy in u r life ? 
I was there for u 
When u wanted to go out in the mid night 
My love never had any conditions but just love 
I loved u so much that my mood started depending on u r s ! 
Y do u even have to give me so much of unbearable misery that it started killing me in its own way 
Do I really deserve this much of pain for just loving u unconditionally ? 
Don't I have any worth ? 
Y me trying to hold u r hand talk to tell my feelings is u thinking that it would be a betrayal to u r new boyfriend ? 
What about all those days when u were in my arms saying I LOVE U 
I can't live without u ? 
Do I even deserve this much of pain ? 


Breakup

Hope is something you shouldn’t give up whenever u feel like u are so down to life

3am Thoughts

Once upon a time.

Life

I always loved and cared about you...In my mind I have this imaginary happy life with you but I know reality is far different from this....you have shown me rejection so many times and me still like an idiot think why we can't be together I am so dumb I still wait that you will text me like seriously what is wrong with me? 

Crush

Today was my bday and ex wished me saying “happy bday…. Stay happy” 
And i thought to write a long para 
Then I remembered one day she told me “i left you coz … tumne kbhi apne words se hope nhi diya” 
-Girl i used to wait for you for hours and still greeted u with a smile and chocolates 
-i knew u cheated me with a guy but i still went to see you 
-u just mentioned about roses and i self delivered to your home without you even asking 
- when i was crying while you were leaving me was that not a hope for you. 
- my didi called and asked you to sort it out was not that a hope for you that how seriously i am invested on you. 
- my tears was not a hope for you 
- u ignored my texts and calls but i still answered in one was not that a hope for you. 
- u were leaving for a trip and i said “pls take me with you i will miss u a lot here” was not that hope for you . 
- u canceled my plans for 3 months but i still waited for you that ine day she will come to meet me was not that hope for you 
- no matter how much you prioritised ur frnd over me but i still chose you was not that a hope for you 
- the day u said u are at ur office and cant take leave and when I came there to surprise you u texted i am not at office leave tha yaad nhi tha and didnt utter a word that day was not that a hope for you 
- girl I apologised for the thing i didnt even commit 
- i said million times that i will fight against family for you was not that a hope for you. 
- was my promise i made while holding ur hand “that no matter what i will never leave this hand and i kissed ur palm was not that a hope for you. 
And u decided to leave me for a guy u met 10 days ago 

No one deserves anything. Whether good or bad. 

Can the hope get alive if its dead already? 

so here’s the thing. everyone knows of “us” and everyone knows that we haven’t dated in years or actually spoke in that matter, but everyone also knows that we’re still in love with each other. it took me a long time to realize that maybe everyone was right. that the reason we’ve both been in really short relationships/single for years is because we’re not with each other. we are each other’s weaknesses and it seems like everyone but us knows that. but now i see it. when we see each other, everything is different. you light up, you’re suddenly the kindest person in the world and i do the same. except, we’re so alike so i won’t contact you and you won’t contact me. so i guess one of us will have to move on first, but in the mean time i miss you so so dearly and i wish so badly that you would text me because i can’t bring myself to do it and neither can you. 

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