I like this guy I wanna get to know him more but I don’t really know how ._. I hardly get to text him also cause he lives in India and I’m in texas soooo yea idk what to do tho :b

Gn or gm how are you feeling?

Self Love

I don't know why but I always end up being blamed for everything and the irony is that I always gave an intention of doing good for everyone. My parents say that I am heartless and I care about no ones feelings and emotions, but its not like that. I do feel everything but I lack the skill of expressing everything 

Lonely

So I recently started having a crush on someone I met. Not here or any online platform in real life. 
And tbh it's like I am having a crush on someone after a long time. Like last I remember I had a proper crush on someone was in mid 2019. After that now it's this girl. Also usually whenever I have a crush I know that it's not possible for me to approach and/or turn it into a relationship since this has never happened and will not happen. I am usually just happy talking to them and knowing about them. Call it stupid but it is what it is. 
But the thing is this time what's happening to me is that I am having weird intimate thoughts about my crush and this does not feel right to me. I never think about my crushes in this way. And I am hating myself for this. 

Crush

It's quite funny how my sister find my life easy and how she taught I'm so lucky that my parents love and like me unlike her when in fact I envy her because she is the youngest and she easy get what she want just by asking while I need to give something to my parents in return for what I ask. 

It's been 2 years already since she become distant to me after she found out that her crush is my ex and my childhood schoolmate, she become disrespectful and the little girl who call me sis only call me by name now. I just found out that she like one of my guy friends since most of my friends are males and she is more distant when she found out that my friend who she likes happen to be my suitor. To be fair with her, I cut off my connections to my friends so we could go back to how we used to be but she keep looking for my mistakes and keep telling me that I am lucky, I always get what I want. I want to tell her that she don't know how hard my life is even though in her eyes our parents like me when the truth is that my parents never been proud of what I do and keep comparing me to her.

Life

So, I've been hearing that our branch might be closing down and alll through the grapevine of course, the company will obviously not inform us till we're on our knees. This means I'm on the job hunt again, after having worked here for just close to 3 years. It just feels so sad and so strange that employees don't really mean much to a company and are irreplaceable. Moreover, the physical and mental burden that unemployment brings , till I'm back on my feet and I know that I have a job. Sometimes, really, there's only so much optimism that you can force out of yourself. Just want this phase to get over soon. 

Work

I still believe in good people


Friends

Anyone wanna talk?
If yes than what are your hobbies?


Don't be pushed around by the fears in your mind. Be led by the dreams in your heart.😊😇

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